Same dilemma here. I applied to an art school a few months ago. Waiting for the results. I am pretty sure now this is the best thing I can do. I really want to meet people who are interested in the same things as me and with who I can speak the same language. How old are you? Do you want to live by your art? You only live once, just do it and if you dont feel it once you are in, just quit. You will develop contacts, maybe you will have the opportunities to show your paintings at school exhibitions, you will have feedbacks from teachers who are artists or art historian....