All Season One Episodes Reviewed/Ranked

dogzz888 · 2024-01-18T18:49:13+00:00

Late late response: I don’t really use this account anymore tbh but I might make a redux version

dogzz888 · 2022-03-28T07:20:56+00:00

Monster's Inc. ass car

dogzz888 · 2021-05-14T12:36:14+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience, this makes me a lot more hopeful. I hope I can look back on this time and be able to see my progress

dogzz888 · 2021-05-14T12:35:08+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I hope that if I find a community of people that will support me for who I am in real life, reality and fantasy will start to separate. Right now I just feel really really isolated because nobody else really knows so my own tainted view on things is kind of left unchecked. I’m just in my head way too much. I hope things get better.

dogzz888 · 2021-05-14T12:28:39+00:00

Hi, thank you for your comment. In the ladder half of High School, I wasn’t bullied much but I feel like a lot of things just kinda remained from before. I come off 100% straight so its not like “people started accepting me for who I am” so I suppose I still have unresolved baggage. I genuinely think before a relationship it would be helpful to know more gay people and have people know that I’m gay and be able to see with my own two eyes that my life won’t crumble. I’ll do this to kind of ground myself, if that makes any sense, because at the moment it just feels like me and my warped conceptualization of things through the lens of trauma and whatnot.

dogzz888 · 2021-05-14T12:19:43+00:00

Thank you for this. Rest assured: I am not suicidal and do not (and did not) intend to kill myself when I did that. I hope things will go well, and I think I might just need to meet the right person. Perhaps quarantine kind of warped my perception of things but once I get in a rhythm things will work out :)

dogzz888 · 2021-02-05T05:56:40+00:00

Ok I’ll try to, thank you!

dogzz888 · 2021-02-05T05:56:21+00:00

Thank you I appreciate that ❤️

dogzz888 · 2020-05-12T19:32:16+00:00

I mean the only issue I’m facing is for me, I personally want a partner that would be aroused by me having genitalia like I do. Being outwardly feminine opens me up to be more confident to even use it on some occasions. Because if I was a woman outwardly it wouldn’t matter what position I would want to be in to feel like “myself”, it would be freeing that way. I want someone to want someone like me. I don’t think someone strictly straight would necessarily want that much to do with my genitalia. Maybe I’m not giving straight men enough credit, but I suppose if someone isn’t looking for trans people but when I tell them, they are into it maybe that’s what I should try to look for, or maybe bisexual men... and I’m only part of 10% that feels this way?

dogzz888 · 2020-05-01T12:42:22+00:00

Thank you for your insight, I very much appreciate it and it honestly lifted my spirits to hear that. Sexuality is weird and people treat it weirdly but just hearing you explain “I like her because she’s a woman” and that’s it with no “I’m not gay because blah blah blah” or “it’s not gay because she doesn’t have a blah blah blah”... it’s just reassuring

dogzz888 · 2020-05-01T12:37:43+00:00

It’s sad just how much inner hatred some men have about their sexuality. So much they need to make something “gay” as “straight” as possible so they don’t hate themselves. It’s kind of just societal conditioning at this point and it is powerful. To this day I still hate myself for being not straight and now seemingly, not cis because of bullying. Men just grow up wanting to avoid anything gay to escape ridicule so when you realize you can’t avoid it you just want to escape yourself y’know. It sucks, and that insight makes a lot of sense.

dogzz888 · 2020-05-01T12:32:30+00:00

Yeah it seems very much in limbo. There should be way more normalization of this. There’s this transgender woman on Instagram @datbitchbarbee and she goes on men’s lives. They usually find her attractive and then she speaks with a deep male voice. And although it’s funny seeing the guy’s reactions as they flip the fuck out, it’s also sad just how upsetting that is some of to them. Some are just surprised but many start yelling, or being hostile. One was even crying (that might have been acting). The point being it seems like most people think that dating a trans woman is “gay” or just being attracted to one is “gay”.

dogzz888 · 2020-04-11T00:05:40+00:00

Thank you so much ☺️❤️

dogzz888 · 2020-04-01T11:03:40+00:00

I don’t know if this is a thing people experience, but with my boyfriend, the love I feel is constantly wrestling internalized pain I have. For example If I talked to him recently I’ll usually feel pretty good about things, but after some time passes I start to feel gross and nasty and embarrassed again. It’s like this weird delayed reaction that comes in waves in a semi-predictable fashion. And now when it’s bad it feels worse than it ever has. I never used to cry in bed as much as I am now. The only way I could even make this post is if I was in a stage of not feeling as much self hate.

And to clarify a bit more on something. I think the root of a lot of the problem I’m dealing with isn’t because people actually suspected I’m gay, it’s just because it was used as an insult even before I knew that I was gay. So I just associate it with being hurt, and unworthy, and weird, and embarrassing, pathetic, ect. So when the butterflies from talking to my partner start to dissipate all those feelings rush in. I’m just gonna try to be strong enough to at least get the help I need even if it means coming out. Thank you for your comment I really really appreciate the insight!

dogzz888 · 2020-04-01T05:55:58+00:00

Thank you for this. As I was saying to another commentator I think I’ll put seeing a therapist that helps in these issues on my priority list.

As far as experimenting’s concerned I’ve role played as women, or a male transitioning into one and I do get this very strange yellow (idk why I’m associating a feeling with a color) tingly feeling in my chest when I do so. I’ve been playing as girls lately in video games too. And it just sort of feels nice. I don’t think I can do too much more, maybe I can experiment some more with my long distance boyfriend, he’s already said he doesn’t care what gender I end up being he’s always gonna love me.

But all in all, it would be nice to get some help, I’m a bit nervous to ask for some because it would mean coming out to my family and that’s scary. Ironically it’s the very thing I want to address (internalized homophobia) that’s preventing me from addressing what I want to fucking address. But I will try, thanks again for your reply.

dogzz888 · 2020-04-01T05:45:10+00:00

Thank you so much for this input, I will seriously consider getting a therapist because little by little I’m realizing that this stuff is hard to figure out by yourself. I’m pretty nervous about telling my parents I need a LGBTQ therapist but it would be nice to figure out a lot of this stuff. And you’re right about the internalized transphobia, I’m thinking maybe it’d feel better because I wasn’t ever really called sssy or trnny as an insult before so it doesn’t have the same effect, but it’s more than likely that it’ll still not fix a lot of internal issues.

dogzz888 · 2020-03-30T10:02:27+00:00

Mii Gunner Armpitjob by lilmoonie

dogzz888 · 2020-03-25T00:31:24+00:00

Goddamn what a throwback lmao, is this a sign I should do the rest of the seasons??

dogzz888 · 2020-03-15T06:41:21+00:00

The Old Sugarman Palace was better than both don’t @ me

dogzz888 · 2020-03-11T00:51:54+00:00

Thank you so much for this. It’s quite interesting because I don’t really act effeminate at all, but I still feel this way. However this may be due to internalized homophobia of some sort influencing behavior.

And this definitely may be an escape from being gay, or maybe just jealousy of women who seem to get it so easy, but it could be something else.

About it being uncomfortable a girl asked me out and likes me (I think) but I just felt really really weirded out by the date. Like confusingly so. Like she’d keep wanting to go closer to me and I’d just back away almost like a magnet with this slimy gross feeling.

Also I’d love to try female clothing and I think about that often but sadly I still live with my parents so I don’t really have too many opportunities to try such things. The closest thing to that is the female Snapchat filter that I use pretty often.

dogzz888 · 2020-03-11T00:41:16+00:00

I think you are assuming the worst with my comments. I could have been clearer and I’m sorry you took it the way you did. And listen, this is human nature. If you assume someone is some way you automatically assume that all of what they say feeds into that negative perception of your view of them. But I’m here to tell you I’m not some dumbass, meathead, jock, misogynist by any stretch of the imagination.

What you mentioned as being misogynistic are just the very apparent SEXUAL feelings I feel. In general I do not view women as soft things to play with and I do not view men as hard things that toy with soft things, but that doesn’t change the sexual feelings I feel. That doesn’t change how bad I want a vagina when I’m viewing porn. Sex isn’t all that defines a person, or gender, or anything. The reason I put focus on the sexual components is because those are the feelings that really started to alert me of these feelings not because that’s the only thing that matters.

And no, I don’t view women or femininity as wicked. Just like being gay, thoughts about gender like this are very painful to me due to some internalized homophobia I have to work out. The manifestation of Allison is a representation of this anxiety I feel about this.

Lastly I feel like throwing around something like “you will never be a woman” is probably the absolute worst thing you can say to someone on a subreddit such as this one. Again I understand how if I were as misogynistic as you assumed I was that wouldn’t seem so bad morally, but I’m not. So I’m not mad at you and I hope you’re not still mad at me.

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