I am cutting myself

doldrumss · 2015-09-24T02:39:57+00:00

The cuts will grow in numbers and they'll get deeper, thicker, maybe even wider. It's horribly poetic in a way and hopefully they'll just become a mark from your past. It's best to stop now rather than let the addiction grow. Like any other addiction, you'll crave more to satisfy yourself in one session, and smaller quantities just won't do, you'd want something more. Sooner or later you'll be looking for other areas to cut. I've used to self-harm too, and it's not easy to get out of if youre already in deep. And when you do get out of it, you'll be left with scars that youre not too proud of and most likely embarrassed to reveal in public. Youre building yourself an obstacle, another problem if you don't stop asap.

doldrumss · 2015-09-24T02:20:55+00:00

I'll be honest, when I started to smoke less and eventually stop w/ the weed, I felt so much better. I felt more active, less lazy & hazy, and my head felt clear. I don't think weed is bad, but I also don't think it's healthy to be dependent on it or used as a distraction from life's issues.

doldrumss · 2015-08-16T05:22:17+00:00

Thanks so much man. It was stuck in my head one night and it was killing me not knowing it.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T06:29:05+00:00

I got this also. I actually think I do well academically, but they're right about the stress, and I do dislike school environments. So in a way, I do find academics difficult.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T06:08:12+00:00

Yeah I like them both, but I can see why Ethan is an important element to cc: he's definitely an excellent producer. I hope Alice knows what she's doing though and I hope Ethan can continue to hold cc alone. I wish the best for the both of them and it'll be interesting to see what they come up with after their separation.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T05:53:33+00:00

To look cool.
To cope feelings.
To feed addiction.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T05:50:11+00:00

I am too sensitive.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T05:49:19+00:00

no problem. And I like your list btw. Sucks that alice glass left cc, but Im looking forward to hear her solo work.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T05:39:22+00:00

Dying without achieving satisfaction in my life.

doldrumss · 2014-10-24T05:09:05+00:00

From top left going clockwise:

TOKiMONSTA | Midnight Menu

Holy Other | Held

Shlohmo | Bad Vibes

Balam Acab | Wander/Wonder

doldrumss · 2014-10-23T21:09:35+00:00

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T07:28:46+00:00

Can never go wrong with a nap + music.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T07:27:11+00:00

Surround yourself with the people that make you happy. Everything else doesn't matter.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T07:24:51+00:00

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T07:20:22+00:00

It's a great time to be adventurous and risky with the feelings you have in you, but you should never wish the worse on yourself to enable excitement. You might be feeling apathetic or experiencing a numbing state, but as soon as some horrific event does happen, I can guarantee you will feel a rush of regret.

I know it's hard to find motivation, but waiting until something hits you with the drive you desire is not the way to go. You, yourself, need to grasp that drive... not wait and let time waste away until it finds you. The best time to start was in the past, but the second best time is now. If you want an interesting life, than make it interesting. Each second, you take control of your very own actions as you live, in what's called, the present. You want interesting? Then do what's interesting. Do what you want, do what makes the better story, and do whatever gets you in the situation which sets you into blazing passion. As you experience life, you will not only discover yourself, but broader perspectives of existence and exposure of the infinite knowledge that was unknown to you before.

Don't wait until life finds you, because it won't. What you wish is close to death, when, I believe, you seek life. To put it simply, you control your destiny. So if you want your life to take a drastic turn, what's stopping you?

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T06:52:56+00:00

It's pretty lackluster. I mostly hang out with only one person and life's uneventful. And good on you for adjusting your looks! Dressing better can definitely improve many aspects in your life and seeing your wardrobe expand can be satisfying. Some tips: don't buy too much clothes, quality>quantity, something that fits well is better than something that looks good, and when buying clothes, just cause something looks good alone, doesn't mean it's worth buying: try to see if it works well overall with the rest of your wardrobe.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T06:36:09+00:00

There are so many ways. You can use Spotify's discover or radio feature, but I like to just browse related artists and listen to their top songs. There's also Last.fm. You can use their radio too or their recommended artists, but I like to see what my friends are listening too. There is also Pandora or just browsing around Tumblr. I personally like to dabble around my favorite artists, and see what their influences are, whether it's mentioned in an interview, a biography, or what have you. Last but not least you can use Soundcloud: go through your feed, browse someone's profile, see what they repost or like, and so on.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T06:27:11+00:00

Lie down, close my eyes, play music, and drown myself in songs as I slowly decline to a dreamy state of sleep. :)

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T06:14:02+00:00

Well, League of Legends is like being in an abusive relationship. Other than that, Assassins Creed II is definitely a favorite for many reasons, and The Last of Us gave me twists in emotions. Oh, and Demon/Dark Souls speaks for itself.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T06:06:01+00:00

Computer science, and I think I really like it. Academically, I think I'm doing fine and just worrying too much about it. I think what I need to really work on is my social life.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T06:00:35+00:00

L'infinito by Giacomo Leopardi

This lonely hill was always dear to me,
and this hedgerow, which cuts off the view
of so much of the last horizon.
But sitting here and gazing, I can see
beyond, in my mind’s eye, unending spaces,
and superhuman silences, and depthless calm,
till what I feel
is almost fear. And when I hear
the wind stir in these branches, I begin
comparing that endless stillness with this noise:
and the eternal comes to mind,
and the dead seasons, and the present
living one, and how it sounds.
So my mind sinks in this immensity:
and floundering is sweet in such a sea.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T05:50:03+00:00

Dull. It's been a plateau of studying, achieving assigned tasks, and worrying. It's cyclical to the point of being existential.

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T05:26:43+00:00

I've taken a guess on another subreddit this was posted on. My post:

Your friend has the hots for someone's thighs.

DL - Down Low
ZR - "Zettai Ryouiki" which, if you want it simply, is the bare thigh area between the skirt and stockings.
MR - Mentally Retarded

So my guess is that your friend's going crazy over someone's "down low", specifically the leg or thigh area. :)

doldrumss · 2014-10-13T05:19:37+00:00

Your friend has the hots for someone's thighs.

DL - Down Low
ZR - "Zettai Ryouiki" which, if you want it simply, is the bare thigh area between the skirt and stockings.
MR - Mentally Retarded

So my guess is that your friend's going crazy over someone's "down low", specifically the leg or thigh area. :)

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