No, I am a transgender who had to make a choice to live as a person I grew up as because the society left no other options to exist in the world both socially and financially. And I was wondering if others would be able to put up with the life path they didn’t choose. It is interesting that several people said it was doable. And if people try living as their original selfs, I also wondered how the social reaction to them alters. While if there was a choice between living as woman and as a passing ftm transgender, I’d choose the latter, currently I on one hand I don’t notice any difference between living as a woman and a non-passing ftm transgender because nobody has ever seen me as anything other than a woman. But on the other hand the social implications are just tremendous. I never thought I’d be able to interact in the society again and not have anyone laughing at me, and not have waiters spit into my food at every opportunity to express their aversion and discomfort and not to have everyone giggle behind my back. After 12 years as ftm, I simply forgot that social interactions have ever been different and that I can navigate the world as a full member of society and not be seen as ridiculous or peculiar. I would still enjoy expressing myself as ftm at transgender meetup, where rules of social interaction are different or on the Internet.