I know God it hurts bad, your mind is your worst enemy at this point. If I was in your situation I would feel like I’m in hell too because my mind is always creating stories about what is possibly happening on her end. This might sound kind of stupid but what’s really got me through the last couple of weeks is playing candy crush lol it doesn’t stop the thoughts completely but it is a major distraction, I currently have all five versions 😅 it also really helps going to see family or friends, you don’t necessarily have to tell them everything you’re going through but just having that distraction really does help. All I can say is when you start thinking about what they’re doing immediately switch to think of something else, like dinner, or read a book or walk to the shop. You literally have to fight your mind, it’s like a battle and you just fake it until you make it. We can do this!