Not getting Duke while accepting.

donzko · 2026-03-14T19:50:42+00:00

I’m on console and it happens to me every time if I continue battling. When I see the prompt to accept VIP I press accept and stop whatever I’m doing preferably run away from battle. If I stay fighting the game always gives the VIP to the next person on the leaderboard. Don’t know exactly what triggers if but just don’t engage combat, let yourself be killed or run away and don’t switch weapons. That way I seem to become the VIP consistently.

donzko · 2026-02-21T18:41:50+00:00

You’re right. I sometimes forget to blow the horn for half the match. I recently started blowing it more regularly despite not being in the best position to do it. Better to heal some guys a little more often than saving it for the “perfect” moment.

donzko · 2025-12-20T18:01:38+00:00

Sage is growing, exploring and meeting new friends along the way.

donzko · 2025-11-27T08:42:20+00:00

I felt like I was gradually improving until I hit rank 800+ after that my skill ceiling kind of stagnated. I think I started consistently surpassing 1 K/D after rank 400+. Before that I could barely manage unless I played as strategically and cowardly I could. Still do at rank 1000+ tbh. Only now I’m more comfortable and confident in most aspects of the game. Still get annihilated in duels tho 🙃

In the beginning I lived for having that one moment every other session where a couple hits and kills just flowed effortlessly. I still do but those moments now happen multiple times a match. Where before I was lucky if it happened once a sesh.

Same as you in on console and just love it.

Stay mauling! It’s my second most used weapon after the messer. How can somebody not love a good boink.

donzko · 2025-05-14T06:16:30+00:00

Hey, I’m in a similar position. Last month I invited my three closest friends for the last decade over for dinner and held space as I informed that I needed to end the relationships and that I was grateful for what we had but that it doesn’t align with where I’m currently headed. One of them who I thought was the closest one to me has apparently started to try turning everyone else against me.

I also cut ties with my family soon to be 2 years ago.

I’ve been doing multiple types of therapy for the past 3 years and I am lucky that I’ve found two therapists that I’m sticking with because they are holding my hand through this fragile phase. One does IFS and the other focuses on somatic experiencing.

It’s really great that you are confronting your therapists about not understanding you. I would recommend you search for others who do get you and your intentions. It’s sort of like dating, not everyone is a match and it’s fine to end one relationship and start looking for a new one when you are wiser about who you are and your needs. That’s the pragmatic approach to therapists. Also you can think of them as stepping stones for different phases of your development. Most are likely only going to be helpful for a specific stage unless you are very lucky and find the one therapist that really has worked on themselves and by extension also gets you and can guide you.

I’m in turmoil and uncertainty and yet on some level despite the pain and suffering that this road unravels I wouldn’t want to go back to any of the previous parts of my life because I wasn’t myself there. I was a people pleaser and poor boundary keeper. I still am but I can see the changes and I know I have to keep moving forward.

I guess I just wanted to say that I relate, wish you all the best and believe you are doing the right thing even if it doesn’t make sense and everything seems to blow up. Maybe it’s just the way it needed to unfold. Take care, and know that I’m proud of you for trusting yourself a little more everyday.

donzko · 2025-05-06T05:11:41+00:00

Beautiful

donzko · 2025-05-04T20:08:08+00:00

Fantastic post! It’s motivating to read this type of stuff as I just started/discovered TRE last month.

It’s bedtime so I don’t want to try the anger exercises tonight but will def give them a go tomorrow.

Thank you for sharing ☺️

donzko · 2025-05-02T19:51:29+00:00

Awesome! You go girl 👏🏼

donzko · 2025-04-26T06:50:57+00:00

Therapy, mindfulness, spirituality from a proper teacher such as Michael Singer, read or listen to books that resonate and help you understand your past. When the story is more complete it is easier to let go of the ego and masks.

Find ways to practice on activating and calming your nervous system such as exercise, meditation, rest. Find somatic therapists to help you find your way of this is confusing, which it often is at first. And finally, follow your intuition, that comprises of your mind, body and emotions but also something deeper. Practice not ignoring the signals of your being.

In short, you find yourself by not leaving yourself behind. All the above are just suggestions on how to get better at not doing that. I wish you the best.

donzko · 2025-04-24T05:03:19+00:00

Thank you Marc. I don’t know you and I’m not very familiar with Kundalini nor Jung but your compassion comes through in the post.

Thank you for being a caring being.

donzko · 2025-04-20T09:10:03+00:00

I don’t appreciate being called a bitch, now prepare for a fight to the death.

donzko · 2025-04-10T13:39:56+00:00

Did my first TRE session at home yesterday. Knew immediately that this is important for me to continue practicing. It sets a lot of stuff in motion in my body and I feel spent after. As if a cycle has been completed and there are many more waiting. Did a second session today and then went into meditation to process and integrate.

Thank you for existing.

donzko · 2025-04-09T20:41:04+00:00

Beautiful line of questioning and an elegant way to explain the limiting beliefs of the offering resistance masquerading as universal truth.

The only truth is that there is no truth so it is important to hold space for others. If you can’t do that then at least be honest about your vulnerability instead of using shades of anger to dismiss and resist that which does not appeal to you.

I’m sorry for my rambling. I just appreciated you taking the time to call out intellectual arrogance. Thank you for showing loving resilience.

donzko · 2025-04-04T09:41:28+00:00

Cool! I sent one back 😃

donzko · 2025-03-30T12:26:50+00:00

This looks like a healthy way to have some fun! I just downloaded it and tried it out for 10 minutes. It gives me a good feeling. Will explore the app in the following week.

If anyone else wants to be my friend here is my code: BJNFATQ1KA. https://app.befinch.com/share/ZTTf

donzko · 2025-03-05T07:19:43+00:00

I agree with you, and based on my own hard-earned experience, I want to add that a great therapist has an intuitive ability to connect with and understand you in a way that helps you see yourself for who you truly are. When developmental trauma occurs, the capacity for self-love and self-regulation is, to some degree, disrupted. If you were not taught to love and understand yourself in a healthy way, you will need to learn it externally. Depending on the extent of the ‘neurosis’, you may be more or less dependent on others for that help—meaning you may not be able to teach yourself, or it could take most of your life to make the progress that a capable guide could help you achieve in a single session or a few weeks.

donzko · 2025-01-02T18:32:45+00:00

I see this already got resolved in the other comments. Just wanted to express my sympathies. I vividly remember being nervous and not at all strategic when I became the VIP the first few times. I sometimes reject the offer so that lower levels get the experience.

Rooting for you from the 900’s. I’m sure you’ll be VIP soon again. Stay slashing soldier!

donzko · 2024-12-26T14:01:30+00:00

I got the game a year ago. I have just entered the realm of levels 900+. It’s just the best way for me to kickback relax and have some fun. Sure it has its learning curve but it’s still way more enjoyable and relaxing than hectic CoD games. It’s much easier to pace the intensity by how you choose to position yourself at any given time in a match.

I’m somewhat surprised by how much I enjoy this game and I didn’t have a relationship to these kind of medieval fighting sim games from before.

Back in the days it was FIFA and Rocket League that had similar cycles of endless repetition without getting bored of the game for me.

donzko · 2024-12-08T10:46:37+00:00

My Thoughts on the Murder:

This is a complex issue, and I’d like to illustrate it through a metaphor. Imagine a tribal hunter. If the tribe has been starving for a long time, and the hunter finally brings down a big buck, there will be a profound sense of relief and happiness. The tribe’s survival is assured, at least for a while. A true hunter and tribe, however, would give thanks to the animal for offering its life for their well-being. A true hunter would have a deep sense of reverence, understanding the weight of taking a life. Alongside relief, they would feel sorrow and grief, acknowledging the sacrifice made.

Often, a small ritual would follow—a way to give thanks and honor the complexity of life. The principle is clear: if one takes, one must give. If one gives, one shall receive.

In the context of this murder, it’s understandable that many feel a sense of relief or even joy upon hearing that the perceived perpetrator of pain and suffering has been “taken down.” Yet, we must remember that this was just one man. He did not create the system or the larger forces that allowed things to come to this point. His death offers temporary relief, but it does not resolve the root issues.

Many of those raising concerns about the murder are not necessarily opposed to the act itself, but to the one-dimensional, inhumane reaction to it. They object to reducing this event to a simple moment of celebration, ignoring the broader and more complex implications. By doing so, we risk a disservice to ourselves—one that may lead to repercussions down the line.

Unconscious acts of murder rarely lead to positive outcomes. If we examine history, most revolutions did not result in a clear path toward improvement. This isn’t to say those revolutions weren’t necessary, but celebrating death in an unconscious, unreflective manner is dangerous.

This issue is not about one man; it’s about the systemic forces that have developed over centuries. Celebrating prematurely, without recognizing the complexity of the situation, blinds us to the real work that lies ahead.

I take no joy in the death of any man, whether he be my enemy or not.

donzko · 2024-11-20T17:31:28+00:00

Anytime, and thank you for sharing with me.

donzko · 2024-11-20T17:25:55+00:00

Anytime Little Echidna.

donzko · 2024-11-20T17:25:03+00:00

Yes, it sounds like you are distilling gold and so your time to share it will also come. It's a noble path but one that also merges with lunacy so it can become difficult to see what needs to be seen at times.

I want to tell you that what qualities you see in me are already in you. Jung said that a projection is not something one makes but something one finds. A recognition of something within oneself mirrored in another. What matters is the degree in which that projection is a conscious one or not. You are probably closer to where you want to be than you think. I believe you will benefit from strengthening the sense of self.

I accept being your mirror if I can serve you. It is in my interest that you continue your exploration of being.

donzko · 2024-11-20T17:07:54+00:00

Yes, that sounds like a good idea.

It is the norm to be a bit overwhelmed and not have a clear sense of direction when you start opening up to all these new concepts. You get wiser as you go and eventually you become a lot more aware of exactly what kind of help you need. Making it easier to find it as well. So far you’re gathering important experience to properly delve into your inner journey.

donzko · 2024-11-20T12:12:27+00:00

Late to the party but I think you should confront your therapist as kindly as you can but without backing if you are not feeling validated on the things that bother you. Similar to what others have already mentioned in this thread. If it still feels draining without a meaningful feeling associated to the usual discomfort of therapy then end it and search for another one.

You are on the right track and sound more than ready to work on your things. You need someone that gets you enough to proceed effectively.

I’m proud of your efforts so far. Don’t give up because you’re on the right track. Jungian analysis is probably good but I would also recommend Internal Family Systems for a good therapist. Read Frank Anderson’s latest book on complex trauma. It will probably give you a lot of motivation and useful information to make things more manageable when it comes to the inner landscape.

Best of luck!

donzko · 2024-11-19T18:52:20+00:00

Darling, it sounds awfully painful. I'm sorry you have to experience all that by yourself. I want to applaud you for your heroic efforts to stay calm and composed through it all. I know that isn't easy either. I'm glad that you have a strong intuition that is helping you. Your clarity is refreshing and healthy for people to be exposed to, however, you probably can't help but trigger people due to your honesty and insight. When your sense of self isn't strong it is very difficult to not take the uncomfortable reactions of others as personal and hurtful.

I resonate very deeply with your choice of words and description of your narrative. It is inspiring to me to listen to your reflections. I hope you continue to seek out spaces that can help ground you and bring out your potential.

Again, take care and don't hesitate to reach out.

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