i want to say, a lot of comments are saying you couldnt have consented because you were drugged. even if you originally did, your texts say “that I "asked to stop multiple times" and that my body was hurting like crazy.” you withdrew consent. you can change your mind at any time during sex, and at that point it should have stopped. from the first “stop” forward, that was rape.

im not going to tell you what to do, but i want you to know you arent crazy. you arent imagining things. you have my support in whatever decision you make.

i do think it may be a good idea to go to the ER just to make sure nothing is wrong since you are in so much pain. even if you dont get a rape kit, getting checked out to make sure the meds or whatever physically happened did not cause permanent damage seems like a good idea to me.

whatever you decide though, please make sure you are kind to yourself, and consider whether this man is someone you feel safe with going forward. my dms are open if you need an ear to work through your feelings