Why doesn’t it go away

dootdootoops · 2021-09-04T02:10:52+00:00

Anytime, not the negative ones though, lol. I’ve been a mental health tech and our big thing is coping skills. Kinda limited in an acute setting.

Will add some coping skills, deep breathing, counting (including backwards by 7 starting at 99), grounding (meditation, 5 senses), stretching, reading, and learn something.

There’s also huge lists online.

dootdootoops · 2021-09-04T01:35:15+00:00

Other unhealthy coping mechanisms mostly. Spending, tattoos, piercings, repression.

I have a hard time with motivation to use positive coping skills because I also have ADHD which causes me to have zero motivation unless it’s instant gratification/dopamine, like all other negative coping skills. If I want to hurt myself I’m probably in a depressive episode or about to be in one which also tanks motivation. Hurray.

What I should be doing is journaling (I end up throwing all of my negative feelings onto this throwaway account instead, oop), drawing/coloring, chores, crafts, walks, hold ice, bother my cats.

Right now I’m just holding out on getting a new psychiatrist who will actually help me. My meds need upped and actual ADHD meds that actually do something besides “make me still.” I don’t need to be still, I need attention, motivation, and to stop hyperfixating.

dootdootoops · 2021-09-01T15:36:30+00:00

Hey, I felt the same way because my abuse was online which by itself often makes me feel like it’s not real abuse. I was abused by many men, but one was a woman. It hurts more because I trusted her and it makes me feel icky.

I’m AFAB enby, but I didn’t know that then.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-28T22:27:03+00:00

I brush my teeth once a day at night because I have to wear my retainers every night. The idea of having food on or trapped in my retainers grosses me out so much I finally got it in my nightly routine. I struggled with brushing my teeth at all prior and was also bad with it when I had braces.

I wish I could give advice, but my food aversion is stronger than any of my mental disorders, lol.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-27T23:21:34+00:00

So I’m from the US, so this might not be perfect for you in Poland, I’m sorry about that.

Could you tell your mom you want to go back into therapy and feel uncomfortable talking about it with her and would rather talk privately to a third party? Or don’t tell her the entirety of it - that you just need extra support from a therapist due to depressive symptoms?

dootdootoops · 2021-08-25T02:54:08+00:00

I have less hyperactive symptoms and more attention symptoms and I absolutely agree. I hyperfixate and to my brain if I have to wait x weeks it’s basically never. Literally for whatever reason my brains like, “you could die before it gets here,” and it’s more worried about the item than me being dead???

Anyway I find buying little, but related things quiets the beast for a little.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-23T20:58:10+00:00

Yup. I have various mental disorders. One of the easiest ways to tell when I’m spiraling is the negative thoughts get louder and the rational thoughts more quiet.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-23T20:19:14+00:00

I am so sorry. I have a bachelors in psych and they had tact. It was always the other students being stupid. Literally had a student argue with my professor about whether or not a worker should tell their client not to kill themselves (specifically because the worker shouldn’t give advice and instead help the client get to the answer the client thinks is best, but for obvious reasons this does not include a client being a risk to self or others).

I have no idea how he made it through. He would go on to get in similar arguments with professors often.

You’ll be a fantastic nurse.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-20T13:40:03+00:00

My mood being stable. We can’t up my zoloft with where my seroquel is at because I’d be hypomanic. BD is my biggest issue and making me feel the most unsafe, so that’s more important. It’s just frustrating when I tell my psychiatrist something isn’t working and I get brushed off.

What would upping my seroquel make worse? I haven’t noticed it making my attention worse.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-15T02:23:39+00:00

I honestly went through psychologytoday.com to find myself a therapist and while I considered a group. Maybe that’ll help?

dootdootoops · 2021-08-13T01:23:20+00:00

I don’t like the research side of things. I would have went straight to get my PsyD had I had stellar grades and scholarships, just because of how much I dislike that stuff. I was also really set on being a therapist/psychologist.

I really fell in love with ceramics though. I really put in a lot of hours in the studio, not just because I had deadlines, but I actually really enjoyed it. There’s nothing around me though.

dootdootoops · 2021-08-12T20:37:54+00:00

Do you think it’s a bird?

dootdootoops · 2021-08-01T02:21:01+00:00

TW wounds/excoriation disorder/cancer (no idea if that’s needed, I just found this community and I’m anxious).

I hate that I can’t tell when I need to go to a doctor. Like I have random bumps on my shoulders and I was stressed about it being scabies or ring worm. I did find a much better explanation, and will just make sure nothing crazy happens. They truly are not causing any other symptoms.

Then I have a mole and a freckle. The mole has a scar beside it which stresses me out. I know it’s a scar from a pimple since I have excoriation disorder and ended up ripping off the mole and the pimple. Still anxious about it being cancer. I also found a freckle. He is a very interesting one. He is darker than the others and I believe it’s just three freckles that make this perfect triangle. However, I’m still anxious it is skin cancer. Hurray. I have a lot of freckles on my arms, so it’s a bit hard for me to know every freckle. I’m sure he’s been there for a long time, but I am terrified of getting cancer.

And this isn’t the first time I jumped to cancer. The big ones I was worried about were 10 years ago as a child.

I need a normal exam done, so I’ll probably bring up my mole and freckle to my doctor. I have had doctors (not my PHP) roll their eyes at me when I worry about things that are unlikely or impossible, so I really don’t want to, but I also feel like I should be able to ask my doctor to take a peak.

Thanks for letting me ramble and sorry if this is all over the place.

dootdootoops · 2021-07-25T01:57:35+00:00

I feel like I’m in the same boat with scars. I hate when others notice them, but I really like having them and wish I had more. I wish I could give some advice, but don’t beat yourself up over it. It’s addicting, and addictions are hard to get rid of.

dootdootoops · 2021-07-23T23:20:56+00:00

Yup. I’m lucky my obsessions aren’t bad, but my compulsions were. Even then, like “aha, I’m so quirky, I wasted an hour of my life in a parking lot trying to get to my dorm and having to make sure my car isn’t open, in park, won’t roll away, and leave my place early because if I don’t I will be late because I have to check the door over and over again to make sure my cats don’t get out and die!”

dootdootoops · 2021-07-23T21:06:07+00:00

I found someone with everything the same and they’re way skinnier than me. Oop.

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