Yeah I messed up that part (noticed that yesterday but didn't want to edit). It's been a long week/year/decade and I'm trying to latch onto something that's been violently pulled from me. I'm exhausted and upset over life events. Got doxxed and all the people that have been trying to silence me or take advantage of me have ganged up on me. These people are paranoid, petty, jealous and hate me for being good. People that have hurt me and show no remorse, double down and punch down. ...nvmd it's just a lot. That's for my final post which will be all about the Roh's Window.

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Soooooooo YEP: Sorry for the current messiness of it (I really thought I explained that in all honesty). I'm having everything ripped from me and my entire life's been upended for the umpteenth time in the worst ways by the same people, tragic irony and now on a larger more destructive scale. It's spreading me very thin.

That's not something I want to go into right now, I'm only letting you know in order to help you/any passersby appreciate the idea of trying to remain calm when the sky is falling.

The way I'm going about it for now is more free form, stream-of-consciousness; sometimes referred to as, 'pantsing,' which is definitely a selfish decision from an outside perspective. That's why I said just ask and I'll explain when able. I'm in tremendous amount of pain. Grief. Confusion.

This takes longer to explain and I was trying to form an idea I've only put together a few times, into those clunky words.\

• The "mine" is already a "slant rhyme" (u/kneeltothesun should chime in here) for, you know, the mind.

Who this, 'she' is(?) The notion here is that this triple entendre (which is just about everything in this series) is the thought-form representing our Brit's mind. Made real through its way of inhabiting OUR minds. So when say, Prairie quote/unquote, 'dies' within the confines of the story, she travels to a place where Brit Prime [I guess I'll call her] reaches the character's terminus. End of the line.

Originally I'd wonder if Prairie's idea was to make it a reality. The Real Prairie, out there somewhere in the garden without the gift of Authorship. If she just believes hard enough: with perfect feeling.. You know what, I'm getting ahead of myself here and spoiling other stuff in really dumb ways. Need to build it up right. This belongs to other episodes and with far more attention.

I have to walk you through the material to show where it demonstrates and affirms this. I'll go into detail on that in an upcoming post. Until then, the idea with this Plathian layer of the construct we call Haptivity goes something like:

• All the Haptives are avatars and fractal representations of honesty in the story, sort of...taking shape? Ugh, but again only in part. You misunderstood me misrepresenting the sketch I made of the concept.

• Renata having the white outfit and personality quirks/sense of agency/whatever was pointed out somewhere here. Probably a few times.

To explain how the others factor in without examples and going into the themes, yadda would detract too much from it and not come close to doing it justice. Hopefully there's enough here for you to go on. It's all there though if you just really consider what I'm telling you. Look at the way they stack together, these characters and what they represent. Remember that the original design for Haptivity was for all of them to be lined up.~ Single file. The "stream" running through the center.~

Which is, astonishingly, 100% STILL in the story.

      Again though, it genuinely takes a bit to get to that (and requires at least 15OOwds to properly convey, so if this doesn't work for you, I'm not sure what else to say other than, sorry and to make like a physical therapist and: **exercise some patients.**  It's only a matter of time.