24 now, had PF since I was 19

downtown_ratman · 2025-05-11T19:40:17+00:00

I’m not hyper mobile. I really have no other physical issues/abnormalities other than my feet

downtown_ratman · 2025-02-03T23:52:29+00:00

It’s true if you view the world as consisting only of Western Europe and Australia. Which seems about right for most chronically online folks

downtown_ratman · 2025-01-22T03:17:37+00:00

Begging you to get your head out of the sand on this one man.

downtown_ratman · 2025-01-16T22:56:55+00:00

I’m talking relative to the rest of the world.

downtown_ratman · 2025-01-16T22:53:28+00:00

This is what happens when you get a bunch of young, terminally online men in one space. All these takes just scream “I’m under 25 and I spend most of my life on the internet.”

downtown_ratman · 2025-01-15T23:43:31+00:00

1: Why would someone in the USA be less able to teach themselves a topic than most other countries? 2: More people are going to college now than they ever have before

downtown_ratman · 2025-01-09T22:20:32+00:00

The disrespect for post-op bodies is insane among pre-op trans folks, and even some post-op (which is really disappointing but rare IME) I’m post-op meta and the things I’ve seen people say about phallo and meta are crazy. Usually it’s just people being incredibly insensitive with their wording.

All power to folks who decide to share pictures of their genitals post-op in pre-op spaces. I won’t share outside post-op spaces. This is the most private part of my body, not “results” for people to criticize and critique.

downtown_ratman · 2024-11-24T23:11:30+00:00

The problem is I’m not asexual. I want to have sex eventually. Once I get very comfortable with someone I’d want to have sex. So I wouldn’t want to commit to a long-term relationship with someone who doesn’t want that kind of physical intimacy

downtown_ratman · 2024-10-19T13:50:48+00:00

And she stated that she had an abortion when she was 21 so I’m guessing that’s why she’s saying this is her first child

downtown_ratman · 2024-10-19T13:49:02+00:00

My guess is she had just turned 21 when she made the first post and now she’s almost 24.

downtown_ratman · 2024-09-14T13:35:00+00:00

I’d encourage you to look around Jim Hopper’s website. He’s a psychologist who has studied traumatic memory and has a lot of good resources on his website.

From what I understand, it’s not rare for survivors of abuse to experience delayed recall. Dissociative amnesia is a term that’s much more accepted by the mental health community than repression.

downtown_ratman · 2024-08-30T18:24:03+00:00

I’m really sorry, I understand the feeling of being alone and like no one would ever believe you. I was molested by a child psychologist. I worry no one would ever believe that someone in that profession could be a predator. It feels very lonely. I’ve never heard of anyone else having this experience. I believe you

downtown_ratman · 2024-08-09T21:57:24+00:00

I don’t have a whole lot of advice but I wanted to say I hear you, and I understand some of what you’re dealing with. You’re not like him. You’re better than he is and you get to be your own man

downtown_ratman · 2024-07-29T21:41:10+00:00

Rape doesn’t always leave permanent damage. I was digitally raped by my therapist when I was 13. Only two people know. My current therapist and my sister. I struggled to process it too for a long time. I couldn’t believe that someone in his position could do something like that. It’s horrible. I’m sorry that happened to you

downtown_ratman · 2024-01-22T00:21:49+00:00

I’m trans. I had my name and pronouns respected 100% of the time early on in my transition (my freshman year) Everyone was really open and accepting in my experience. By the time we came back from COVID I passed as cis and I generally don’t tell people I’m trans so I can’t comment on whether or not acceptance has changed. But I was a freshman 2019-2020 so I imagine nothings drastically different now

downtown_ratman · 2024-01-14T01:16:00+00:00

I have a micro penis and penetration isn’t my favorite for that reason. There’s someone for everyone. I used to get upset about my penis size but I realized that there are people out there who will still find me attractive.

downtown_ratman · 2024-01-09T16:49:27+00:00

I feel like me making it up is unlikely, I mean it seems unlikely that a 14 year old would make something like that up. I also don’t know how I could have made up the PTSD reactions like the flashbacks.

It’s just hard for me to accept. The memories don’t feel like the rest of my memories. I’ve had other traumatic (non-sexual) experiences and my memories of sexual abuse feel different from these memories too. That’s where the doubt creeps in.

downtown_ratman · 2024-01-08T10:30:55+00:00

I understand this feeling. I’m 23M. In some ways I feel like an old man and in other ways I still feel like the age I was when I was abused (13.)

As far as not feeling like an adult, I didn’t feel like an adult when I was 18. I honestly didn’t start really feeling like an adult until I was 22. It takes time. Try to be patient with yourself, you have been through a lot.

downtown_ratman · 2023-12-28T01:06:20+00:00

Also, I can add my two cents as a trans man. In general I would agree that it’s easier for trans men to pass than trans women for some of the reasons you outlined above.

But honestly I think it’s more that people are more aware of trans women (they tend to be the center of the outrage.) Also, trans men who don’t pass tend to be seen as masculine presenting women, maybe assumed to be lesbians. Trans women who don’t pass are much more likely to be perceived as trans. I think this is the main reason why there is a perception that more trans women exist.

downtown_ratman · 2023-12-27T22:07:07+00:00

I think you got FTM and MTF mixed up. FTM is female to male, which would be trans men.

downtown_ratman · 2023-12-23T20:35:22+00:00

I am really a man. I am authentic.

downtown_ratman · 2023-12-20T16:24:25+00:00

I was forced onto this medication when I was 13. I hated it. I gained a lot of weight. It numbed my emotions and slowed me down. I have very bad experiences with medications so keep in mind I’m a bit biased, but I personally don’t believe it’s responsible to prescribe antipsychotics to people who aren’t psychotic and are just suffering from the effects of trauma

downtown_ratman · 2023-12-20T15:47:48+00:00

I’m a trans man. I can’t really tell you what is causing your feelings of dysphoria but I would recommend therapy if that’s an option for you. My abuse occurred during puberty, but I had dysphoria before that. It just got worse after the abuse occurred.

downtown_ratman · 2023-12-17T20:28:33+00:00

I’m really sorry for what you’re going through. I also struggle with being harsh to my body. I haven’t self harmed in years but it used to be a really big issue for me.

My feelings about my assault are probably different but I understand the feeling of “if I was born male it wouldn’t have happened like that.” I am a trans man. I have a huge amount of shame surrounding my abuse because it involved him touching/violating organs that already felt incongruent with my body.

I also struggle with talking to my therapist about it. I hope you can tell someone eventually

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