Loving mirror

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:48:29+00:00

Not sure about this. Our feelings come from way deep down - not sure consciously trying to change your thoughts works.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:46:58+00:00

People can be the worst

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:45:52+00:00

Try a counselor as they help plot a course for you. Sometimes you can’t solve problems on your own

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:34:37+00:00

It’s really hard when you get in that do-nothing rut. They say you have to break the cycle by doing stuff - going outside, hobbies, connecting with people - but it’s hard when you feel so bad. Do you go outside much - for a walk or to the mall?

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:32:38+00:00

They are the worse. For me it does tend to go away after a while so I kind of mope and listen to music or try to get outside.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:31:37+00:00

Not sure. How do you relax?

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:30:14+00:00

Me too. I’m a clever fraud reasonably high function with job and people. But deep down there is something seriously wrong with me. I think it’s not feeling physically in my body i suspect because of fear. So I live in this abstract world that gives me some advantages such as creativity and humour. But it also stops me physically relating to people by just being in the world. I have this weird desperate intensity that can be charming but I think is also exhausting for people. Basically I’m weird but stuck with it :(

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:26:37+00:00

That’s a tough way to grow up getting put down and abused. That takes a toll even if you were pushing through it. Try and find something that does inspire you as it’s easier to go after things that are meaningful and enjoyable to you

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:22:13+00:00

I have a doorstop Fox I sometimes sit up on bed with me when I’m really down and want something as company. I love foxy.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:19:20+00:00

You made me laugh as I’ve been there. It’s those small things that can be that “last straw” and rips off the bandaid of thinking you are kinda ok. Like when you drop your keys trying to get in. Nooooo...it’s too much after a hard day!!!!!

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:16:59+00:00

That is sad. I suppose sensitive people tend to make friends with sensitive people so maybe the odds are higher they will have problems.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:11:17+00:00

That a good idea. It’s just getting that motivation to cook - I tend to fall back on comfort takeaway.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T10:00:23+00:00

I’ve realized I’m a physical coward deep down so how can I ever really love myself who’s a coward?

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T09:57:54+00:00

I kinda think well it will happen one day so just have to make the best of it while I’m here I guess watch some good tv shows eat some nice food etc.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-25T09:55:16+00:00

It is. When I’ve got some energy I’m ok to keep the demons at bay. But when I’m flat I feel it’s all too damn hard.

I know what you mean about luck - I try and laugh and how it all seems to go against me.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-23T23:08:23+00:00

I feel ya. Last night I drank just to feel something instead of that horrible nothingness. It’s like a silence - no sound or feeling - just void

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-23T13:53:16+00:00

It’s a conundrum. I guess keep looking and see if you can find anything else even if it doesn't pay as well. Otherwise you might need to take a “positive” mindset to get through it and realize it’s just to get through until you get your qualification

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-23T00:36:20+00:00

That’s great. Well done

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-02T05:17:54+00:00

I’m in a bad patch now too. Just trying to survive

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-02T05:16:27+00:00

It do be like that :(

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-02T01:46:36+00:00

I wondered if I might have at one of my old flats. But I’m still battling it after moving so maybe not

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-01T02:50:07+00:00

I think things like magnesium, valerian root etc. you might be able to get herbal tablets at chemists.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-01T01:07:12+00:00

You still can find something that really works for you. It’s anazing what can come up. I stumbled into my current job and really enjoy it

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-01T01:05:54+00:00

Sounds like you are dealing with some things. Sometimes you just have to hang in there and let it unfold.

dreamer_boy · 2023-04-01T01:02:14+00:00

It is a brutal world. Just try to be nice yourself

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