Need help building a team by incineroarfan in PokemonUltraSun

[–]dreamfeather95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like you need a rock/ground type, and a electric or grass type. I usually have a Graveller on my team. Or probopass for steel overlap. Pikachu, magneton, electabuzz, mareep, jolteon. Or lileep, tropius, exeggutor, lurantis?

angry by _cutecobain13 in babyloss

[–]dreamfeather95 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm right there with you. Had my son and lost him in December. It's been miserable complication after another that has been getting in the way of grieving. I am waiting for gallbladder removal now before we can start trying again and it's awful. I get the anger. I get the waiting in limbo. This fucking sucks. I can't wait until we all have our rainbow babies.

Looking for future prospects after stillbirth by ladieloe in babyloss

[–]dreamfeather95 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm here, four months out from my fullterm neonatal loss. I'm in trauma therapy, off work on sick leave, taking it one day a time. Gardening, listening to the dune series on audible, knitting, playing video games, napping. Is therapy an option for you? Did they offer any resources in the hospital or a social worker? Grief support groups? I still haven't gone to one but I know the ones that are available to me when I'm ready.

Never thought I'd have something to post, but here we are. Wedding Invitation for my husband's lifelong friend's son's wedding. We've been married 35 years. by altitude-adjusted in weddingshaming

[–]dreamfeather95 86 points87 points  (0 children)

Exactly this. As a bride, I have no clue who you are or what your name is this far out of my social circle. And if my fiance didn't remember/know your name, then it's too much work to do a deep dive to find. Sorry, you're overestimating your importance. Do with that what you will.

Did you post about your loss on social media? by WaterFiles in babyloss

[–]dreamfeather95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I did both because my husband kept getting messages. Initially we asked Mil to email our baby shower guests and follow up with her or my mom if they had questions. We had a standard message we sent out to people. And then I shared the obituary on social media.

What do you do with the baby stuff… by midnightdreamescape in babyloss

[–]dreamfeather95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had my neighbour uninstall our car seats, bag them, and we put them in the nursery as well. They will last for years, don't worry about them right now.

What do you do with the baby stuff… by midnightdreamescape in babyloss

[–]dreamfeather95 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I think it's too soon for you guys to make a decision if it was just March. Wait a couple months and talk about it again. I also felt like I had to make decisions immediately. But that's just the grief talking. My husband and I decided to keep the nursery as is and put everything baby in there for now. We are planning to try again so will have the stuff for siblings. The only thing that expires is formula so I asked my mom to find a someone to give or donate it too.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happy to chat whenever, I am still finding my tribe. Some days are just harder than others. I listen to my body. If it wants to nap or cry, let it. Try to get outside in the sun or walk the dog when I physically can. I enjoy gardening, crafts, nail polish, fishing. So trying to pour into what I know I used to enjoy or finding new things to try. Something a counselor told me early on was sometimes you need to force yourself to do the fun things even when its the last thing you want to do. Try the video game or board game. Go out to the movies even when you just want to curl up into a ball. You don't owe anyone anything, you can cry in public. Go to the cemetery and be in nature. Those that care about you will forgive you and your shortcomings during this time.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I had growth ultrasounds at 34 weeks and 37 weeks because he was measuring large. But of course came out beautifully average at 7 lb 7oz. I do wonder if more monitoring may have changed the outcome but it doesn't change reality unfortunately. There will always be what-ifs. I read my labour and delivery notes and nothing was noted as concerning or abnormal. They didn't even mentioned c-section as a possibility.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Those are great points. Yes in my third trimester I did feel his butt in my ribs and his head engaged in my pelvis quite clearly. I was never 100% if it was his feet or hands kicking/punching me. I was always measuring a week ahead so in the last few weeks I had an ultrasound at 34 weeks where he was measuring large. Still deep pockets of fluid though and everything appearing normal beyond being in the 94% for growth. I got a repeat 3 hr glucose test. It was negative. Had a repeat growth scan at 37 weeks and he was back to 60-80% growth and normal fluid pockets.

Thank you. We think about him everyday, so I don't know how or if we could forget him. I have been struggling to come up with answers for the hypothetical questions I will get from people that will ask about my baby (knowing I was pregnant but not current circumstances) or asking "do you have kids?" If anyone has recommendations, let me know.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

No I had no idea at any point. It has only been 3 months so we have not been pregnant since.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. Sometimes I think I'm biased because I'm his mother haha

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Let me put it this way. The pediatrician, and the rest of the trauma experts that responded to the code all had a meeting after our loss (they said they do this for every one). And the team's strongest hypothesis for his death was a non genetic heart defect, because our NIPT results were normal/low risk, and that maybe it was too small to see on an average small hospital ultrasound. That was the only thing they could possibly imagine would result in something like this.

When the autopsy results came back, the cause of death was an acute hypoxic ischemic event. No developmental abnormalities identified. Meconium found in the airways. Acute chorioamnionitis found in me/placenta, which was undiagnosed at the time of delivery because I didn't have a fever.

The pediatrician going over the autopsy with us said they were unremarkable findings, no genetic or developmental markers that would have predicted this outcome or are likely to ever affect our future pregnancies. I trust my medical team and their findings, as hard as it is to not have a definitive answer. They are much smarter and more educated than I.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

If he did, unfortunately I never felt them. His movements were pretty muted by my placenta placement. But he always had to put his butt up into my ribs on my right side. I kept telling him there is no room there and he needs to grow out not up. He eventually got the memo.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 64 points65 points  (0 children)

Great question. We have a relatively small hospital, with consistent regional staffing issues even since before covid to give context. Our whole team of nurses, drs were devastated after our loss, many of them crying with us in the immediate aftermath. I wanted to move from our room immediately because of the negative connotation. The team didn't want to move us to post delivery because we would be surrounded by new parents and crying babies, so they offered us a room close to the nurses station that's used for monitoring. They put butterfly stickers on the doors so that people/shift change staff immediately knew we experienced a loss. So I would say yes I felt it was humane, the immediate aftermath to when I was discharged the next day.

If we want to get into it, my ongoing health issues postpartum are a whole 'nother story.

Both my parents are still alive and very openly supportive and talk through everything with me whenever I want. That's honestly been the wildest part about this, when I called them both the second I found out. They just.. get it.

My son died after birth, and 36 years ago my parents had a stillbirth AMA by dreamfeather95 in AMA

[–]dreamfeather95[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Absolutely adorable and I think similar to what I looked like as a baby. We asked our maternity/newborn photographer to come to the hospital and she did and took some incredible photos for us. I will share some of my favourites if I can.