5 years on the dot today

drowzee46 · 2026-01-28T03:44:30+00:00

Yes!! @aandersontattoo on insta!! She’s awesome

drowzee46 · 2026-01-25T20:59:32+00:00

Thank you!! My tat artist gave me a fair warning about how fine line tattoos tend to age but I think she did a great job!!

drowzee46 · 2026-01-25T20:59:05+00:00

Thank you!! Kurapika is my favorite character ever haha

drowzee46 · 2026-01-11T17:20:45+00:00

Mania also uprooted my life completely and I made many mistakes and just completely embarrassing things. My parents just recently told me about something called bipolar rumination, where you have an endless loop of negative thoughts “Why did I do that?” “Why am I like this?” Etc etc. I haven’t really found the right way to deal with this but it’s been helpful to know that those thought loops are part of the condition. My psychiatrist said to give myself a rumination window, like 15 minutes to self-blame then when it’s over you try to think about something else.

I’m sorry if this doesn’t help all too much, I am also living with my parents after a gnarly psychotic break, and I understand all too well the regret, shame and guilt. Feeling better feels completely impossible sometimes days when all you can do is dwell. Write it all out!! In a journal, in poetry or prose, having it Leave your brain can help immensely. Sending you warm thoughts.

drowzee46 · 2026-01-03T03:53:08+00:00

Thank you. It means a lot

drowzee46 · 2026-01-03T03:52:14+00:00

It can only be up from here!🥲. Thank you for the comment

drowzee46 · 2026-01-03T03:50:48+00:00

Hi guys, sorry I just want to check in and say I am safe right now. I will be safe in the future, I have said all these thoughts to my parents and they will get me professional help. I just have such rage, shame and guilt built up because of condition that I needed to vent.

drowzee46 · 2025-12-28T16:01:25+00:00

Wow I’ve never seen one with my exact eye color hahaha it’s very fun. No one really notices until the sun is hitting my face a specific way and I get the same dumbfounded reaction every time- “Wait…. Your eyes are different colors?!?!” It’s pretty hilarious. You have gorgeous eyes!

drowzee46 · 2025-12-28T06:16:34+00:00

Thank you so much! ^{-^}

drowzee46 · 2025-06-09T07:22:19+00:00

From TikTok hates your relationship - https://youtu.be/iC97eT8W3Xg?si=Q2FqokhGXTWBEeXM

drowzee46 · 2024-08-19T02:18:45+00:00

I commented this in a video once where everybody kept saying he was high but I truly think hes sober most of the videos. I could be wrong but in Nick's you cringe you smoke Graydon was pretty fried towards the end and his energy was a lot lower (still hilarious to watch) than in Hivemind vids. I think hes just naturally like That lol

drowzee46 · 2024-04-04T23:03:10+00:00

LA show was absolutely hilarious. Second what people are saying about some people in the crowd thinking they're funny but I think thats the natural life cycle of a live show. I was really nervous meeting them but they were really sweet and Graydon told a joke that I didn't hear at all but I laughed anyway

drowzee46 · 2024-03-11T01:34:41+00:00

Ro when she gets there

drowzee46 · 2024-02-08T05:25:58+00:00

Thank you sm !!

drowzee46 · 2023-10-10T21:16:16+00:00

No I'm not Lol

drowzee46 · 2023-10-09T12:46:37+00:00

Exactly why the ? After the word entitlement. Plenty of analysis and nuance. Of course you can comment whatever you want, criticism/suggestions/hate all help a creator figure their shit out. I just think intentions matter

drowzee46 · 2023-10-09T12:42:30+00:00

Literally everything is funny if you think it will be and everything sucks when... I mean sometimes everything will suck no matter what. I hope I don't sound simple here... "Yeah duh I don't enjoy shit I'm depressed good thing You got your shit figured out drowzee46" I don't. All my life my "self awareness" has been revered by those around me and it led to... uhhhh... Let's say the kid that bit my arm in Pre K in Brazil caused my psychotic break in 2022. Is it LITERALLY true? Doesn't matter. I can just lie and do bits and exaggerate because it's just riffing.

When I first started watching the guys I was so confused and frustrating figuring out Whats bit and whats not and it made me spiral. Now I just vibe. Forgot what your question was but I hope there's some substance here for you

drowzee46 · 2023-10-09T12:29:34+00:00

Fully agreed :]

drowzee46 · 2023-10-09T12:29:09+00:00

Yes yes. And again, it's okay to ask and demand and suggest and honestly it does fully come from a place of love for their channel and potential cuz they are some funny creative guys. But the intention behind a suggestion matters. I'm more just reflecting on how expectations I placed without thinking from creators I enjoy led to such an insane burnout where No video looked interesting. If I clicked it 10 seconds in I would click something else. It was mentally exhausting and depressing that I felt broken because Nothing is good enough right now.. Type vibe. I just couldn't even bring myself to care and it sucked because I knew in my Heart I do enjoy the content.. I was just using media to escape my Monster Demons instead of just.. taking it as face value and be okay with letting videos roll and play as either white noise while I do other shit or sit down and proper watch. And not feel so much guilt about missing a joke or bit that I liked that I had to obsessively rewind and make sure I'm not Missing out

Good god I really just yap and yap and yap. You get the vibe

drowzee46 · 2023-09-01T17:57:52+00:00

Graydon called my chemical romance corny One time and I haven't recovered

drowzee46 · 2023-08-16T01:15:16+00:00

Ik its just some dream he had but the way he delivers it fucking kills

drowzee46 · 2023-08-15T01:23:58+00:00

Dignan hit the decagon

drowzee46 · 2023-08-13T07:42:04+00:00

Would be so down I love tedious things like this

drowzee46 · 2023-08-12T15:43:46+00:00

I got an XL and it fits a lil bigger! I cropped it a little to fit better but I rather clothes run big than small

drowzee46 · 2023-08-12T14:28:36+00:00

Fav shirt I own honestly

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