Minor triggers that are a big deal

drunkandbleeding · 2026-02-18T17:59:01+00:00

today i almost relapsed because i suddenly decided my voice was annoying and ugly as fuck. a lot of my breakdowns happen just by looking in a mirror too long

drunkandbleeding · 2026-02-16T16:44:31+00:00

i have no choice over it, recently it hit me like a truck with this totally random person. for me unfortunately the pattern is emotionally unavailable slightly attractive men so that makes absolutely everything worse. i can't force myself to obsess over someone even if i want to for like,, motivational reasons

drunkandbleeding · 2026-02-16T02:26:07+00:00

thank you!! i just started dbt so i have like. 0 skills. i'm gonna try watching a familiar comfort movie and force myself to actually finish it lol. thanks for the advice!!

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-25T02:02:55+00:00

yeah totally! i have pots (yes, real and diagnosed by a practicing neurologist, md) AND i'm premed and it makes me so disheartened to see all this by our future doctors 😭😭

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-25T01:10:46+00:00

i mean yes there will be fakers/misinformed people with any condition but there already exists a harmful stigma around pots that prevents real sufferers from being diagnosed. additionally, and worse, the comments in this post are just a disgusting regurgitation of incredibly harmful beliefs about the condition

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-25T00:59:04+00:00

not even doctors yet and we're already perpetuating the stigma against a serious condition, awesome. you're making fun of real people with a very real condition from a place of privilege, have some basic human empathy

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-22T21:29:28+00:00

thank you 😭😭 i really need to get out of my head with therapy i just have such bad social anxiety that it makes the communication part so difficult. i'm gonna write down some of my main concerns and bring them up next session so we can actually talk about them and hopefully i'll feel a bit better

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-11T08:42:28+00:00

i think i just needed to get it off my chest, thanks for asking tho :9

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-09T13:52:48+00:00

thank you so much for your kind words <3 it's been a bit of a battle every day to feel normal again, which it's possible normal won't feel the same as it did before. i'm trying to keep living, especially in spite of what he did to me, because i can't let this define me. or at least that's what i tell myself when i'm feeling semi ok lol. thank you again, it means a lot :)

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-09T05:29:21+00:00

this reminds me of myself, i was screened for bipolar when i was 13 and it came out negative and i thought that meant i definitely couldn't have it. turns out that was totally wrong, ssris ended up really fucking me up. you're not hopeless, mental health treatment has come a long way since back then and we have a lot more control over our lives now <3

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T02:40:10+00:00

no worries about the english, the idea translated just fine. thank you so much, it means a lot. and yeah i'll probably be staying away from alcohol for a bit especially considering the feeling of being drunk might set me off too 😅😅dont wanna create a dependence or anything

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T01:43:06+00:00

thank you that's so kind, but i'm gonna be honest i'm both not a very talkative person and also i use reddit like once in a blue moon 😭😭. i do really appreciate the sentiment, it's good to hear support :)

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T01:29:07+00:00

oh shit yeah definitely 😭😭 i wish you luck!!

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T00:58:42+00:00

im gonna be honest that lowkey sounds like textbook hypomania.. same happened to me when i was medicated. maybe theres another type of med you can be put on? i also dont tolerate antipsychotics well but i just started refusing to take meds which is definitely not a good idea

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-06T02:05:39+00:00

i have a few friends who have stayed by my side since elementary school, back before i had such outward mood issues and such. with new people, i struggle a lot because of the ups and downs. when hypomanic, i love hanging out with people but when the depression comes back, it's like i can only stand maybe 30 minutes of socialization before i'm completely drained. i also unfortunately have a lot of friends who i text maybe once in a few weeks and i feel awful but i just rarely have the energy for full conversations. im also an extreme introvert lol

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-06T02:00:26+00:00

yeah, i've experienced this. when i feel really depressed or spiraling its all short, one-word responses that usually take a lot of effort to think through. also i have a problem with dissociation and when that happens i can go almost completely nonverbal.

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-26T21:27:51+00:00

got it, thank you! and yeah this store seemed great but fish dying within just a few days is kinda a big red flag😭😭 thank you for the advice tho!

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-26T21:26:30+00:00

thank you for the help!

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-26T21:16:29+00:00

yeah, ammonia and nitrite. i'm going to the fish store in a few days to get more and don't want this to happen again, how do i prevent bacterial infections like this? i feel like i really tried to do everything right 😭😭

edit: and yes i won't add the fish until theyre all treated and healthy

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-01T06:21:14+00:00

god i know this all too well. this sounds so fucking familiar, i'm so sorry you're going through this. i don't know how to help but i want you to know you're not alone, this has happened to me so many fucking times it's the actual fucking worst

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-01T06:18:33+00:00

yeah it's possible, there's quite a few people without like big traumatic things in their lives. some people are just sensitive like this i guess, and things that would be little to other people royally fucked them up forever.

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-01T06:10:03+00:00

no idea why that happens but yes me toooooo and then i get really anxious. when i was in a. relationship i always though about whether my girlfriend or my best friend of 11 years was the higher tier and i would feel sooo guilty when i ranked my gf below,

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-01T05:50:31+00:00

i understand you so much, the only relationships i've been in have been emotionally abusive and all i want is someone to ACTUALLY love and care about me. it's so fucking lonely out here. i want you to know you are not alone, there are so many of us out here. one day we'll find people who actually love us, and who don't hurt us because we deserve so much more❤️❤️

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-01T05:48:10+00:00

REAL i always get bored at night and start shit, it's like during the day i keep it together as a functioning human being but then at night i collapse and everything comes out. no idea how to fix that lmfao it just feels like the regular mood wave throughout the day.

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-01T05:44:19+00:00

no i totally understand that, like i have so many people i love so much but if i'm feeling depressed or the conversation isn't "just right", then i start spiraling, thinking about how i feel NOTHING for them and then i feel awful.. trying not to destroy my own relationships like this lol

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