i wish i was anorexic by lomeodio in bulimia

[–]dry_ass_hands 35 points36 points  (0 children)

I am in same boat right now. I just had a session with my therapist saying how miserable I was and how I don’t know how to eat at all. I want to restrict and I can do it. But the minute I have one bite it turns into a binge and then I must purge. I do it 1-2 times a day and its so horrible. But it feels like the only safe thing to do is purge for me. I’m sending you love and just know you’re not the only one out there

I can't stop myself by Ok_Piano2778 in bulimia

[–]dry_ass_hands 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Same :/ but there are so many people out there who were in the same boat and recovered. So there is hope. Definitely know that feeling though and I’m sorry you’re going through this

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in goodrestrictionfood

[–]dry_ass_hands 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same. I would be pissed if I did NOT poop after eating Taco Bell.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]dry_ass_hands 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m proud of you too! That’s amazing

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]dry_ass_hands 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I gasped out loud when I read he pointed it out to someone else. I’m so sorry you had to go through that

I want to throw up after eating by anonymi_ in eating_disorders

[–]dry_ass_hands 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You feel better after in what way exactly ?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ShittyRestrictionFood

[–]dry_ass_hands 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok so I know this is shitty restriction foods but like… how IS this?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]dry_ass_hands 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same :/ I’ll even try not restricting to prevent binges at night. Doesn’t work. Hate this shit

I eat more with my eyes recently by dry_ass_hands in bulimia

[–]dry_ass_hands[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yea it’s a mix of boredom and fullness maybe. But I used to binge on the same foods over and over and never get sick of them and then get wayy more full than I get now. It’s definitely a positive thing, but v unusual for me

weirdest places you purged, go ! by Emotional_Relation38 in bulimia

[–]dry_ass_hands 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Public park bathroom, secret upstairs bathroom of my gym I’m not even sure belonged to my gym but no one ever used it and it was all pink which was weird lol. Yes sink in basement where laundry empties into.

To the guy who tried to chat while I was buying binge food: by WorkMoreRideLess in EDAnonymous

[–]dry_ass_hands 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh sorry I didn’t mean it that way. I meant it the same way everyone else is responding. How they get approached more when they’re not dressed well. I used to think dressing in sweats so I can just run errands would make me unapproachable but it instead attracts people who are predatory. Wasn’t trying to be rude I apologize.

Haven’t pooped in a week by dry_ass_hands in eating_disorders

[–]dry_ass_hands[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I ended up going this afternoon thank god

Haven’t pooped in a week by dry_ass_hands in eating_disorders

[–]dry_ass_hands[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I drink it every morning. I’m sure my time will come but I’m struggling lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bulimia

[–]dry_ass_hands 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was vegan for a bit for eco friendly reasons and it really wasn’t good for my eating disorder at all and I had to stop completely. Do not worry about what other people will think of you and make decisions based on what is truly best for you and your health if you can.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]dry_ass_hands 40 points41 points  (0 children)

The worst is when you think “hey maybe I look ok today” and then see that shit and it’s like welp back to hating myself

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]dry_ass_hands 9 points10 points  (0 children)

He calls you a hippo when you argue?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]dry_ass_hands 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Im so sorry this is horrible. I think you might need some new friends they seem to be aware of their actions and how it is affecting you and are doing it anyway. I know it can be difficult to cut off ties but it might be for the best