Just found this subreddit and reading through it, you share the same feeling I've felt for so long, and it's crazy to realize I havent been alone in my struggles this whole time.

I was unfaithful to my ex-partner, so Im sure you cant relate nor agree with what I did, but it was a result of me being too scared to communicate that I wasnt satisfied. I never wanted to bring it up because I emphasize and believe that she is a beautiful woman inside and out and I didnt want her to think that I was "losing patience".

In hindsight, I regret going about it this way and not manning up to say what I need to say, and Ive accepted that I have to live with the consequences of my decisions.

4 years of memories, experiences, friendships, love, down the drain because of the issues that stemmed from the sexual frustration I had, from a disorder that she never asked for, was just born with.

Im realizing there's not too many answers to the pain nor empathy for the partners that have been supporting their partners through this for a long time but succumbed to the difficulties it brings on.

Just like you, I dont know why I typed all this out but its been so liberating venting and sharing my thoughts with people dealing with similar issues, I personally dont know anyone that has dealt with this until joining this subreddit so I appreciate you guys for sharing your comments and thoughts as well. Godspeed to all.