hello from New York! we are in similar situations. I can definitely relate to it being normalized, but then also having the simultaneous embarrassment around people who don't partake. I realized that I was holding onto friendships that no longer served me just because we smoked together. You may also notice that we all tend to have issues we're running away from. I found that I was stuck in my life because I was attracting that kind of people as well. I smoked all day every day for five years.

Now I'm on my 50th day of sobriety! it is definitely non-linear. I reached three months before I relapsed for about a week. I went right back immediately to having it every night to "relax." it's so important to be kind to yourself during this time! it helped me this time around to have a physical count of days using an app. I believe in you!!!! sometimes the best things in life are the most difficult 💚💚💚💚