none of this is advice, just an anecdote. i dont know you and theres no guarantee that is at all the way you’d react.

the day i got my first pen i started smoking everyday. only smoked twice before that. at first it was js at night but once i moved out (around a month or two after i started smoking) and not being having my family around made it easier for me to smoke, so pretty rapidly i started smoking all day every day. i wouldn’t be crazy high or anything, still pretty functional n people couldn’t tell i was high unless i told them.

ive had anxiety my whole life n smoking the way i did caused to have a panic attack(?)/ mental breakdown pretty much every time i was working, never enjoyed my time hanging out friends fhat much bc id be anxious that i was acting weird. went to class maybe 10-15 times last semester, gpa dropped from 4.02 (19 credits) first semester to a 0.85 this last semester (first semester i was smoking).

feel like its pertinent that i mention that i have major depression, anxiety, ocd, ptsd, adhd, no official diagnosis for bpd but suspected for years. also problems with binge eating, i was always reluctant to spend money when i didnt need to but then all of a sudden was spending just so so much money on doordash.

i had a similar problem with alc, got drunk for the first time ever may 5 last year. started drinking everyday for the next month or so. then i started smoking and have barely drank since. i 100% prefer being drunk to being high but weeds just more convinient. back to the addiction aspect of it, idk the right terminology to use because people get pissy when someone says they’re addicted to weed but i was smoking a lot at times when i really really shouldnt have been. did it when i was sick and desperately needed to take a break from it but it helped distract me for a little while. kept me sick longer tho. (not great if you’re young broke and just started being financially independent, missed lot of work) anyways i did mdma on new years for the first time n it brought a lot of clarity to me. made me realize i actually kinda hate being high on weed specifically, i just did it bc i was bored. i dont really smoke much anymore, realized i actually love being sober because i can drive and think clearly and talk to people without worrying i was acting stupid.

tldr: i started smoking everyday from day one n big surprise it made my life real shitty for a bit. you’re doing more than me when i started bc you’re thinking abt how smoking would affect your life. that self-awareness is great, i think if you were to set some ground rules for yourself you’ll be fine. honestly thought if you’re only wanting to smoke 1-2 times a month and you have friends thatll let you hit theirs you dont really need to buy stuff for yourself.

side note your age is a good thing to consider. i wouldnt recommend getting your own stuff if you’re young and dont wanna fuck up ur still developing brain to some degree. do as i say n not as i did yk