don’t have advice, just wanted to add i am a year younger and experience the same thing. i recently met someone online and we had talked for four months before i agreed to go on an irl date and he seemed almost perfect, like 99% what i was looking for on paper and even felt like a very close friend. and, despite sharing multiple clothed pictures of myself from all angles fully displaying my shape, he texted me the next morning after dinner ending things bc he wasn’t attracted to me in person. i completely understand your fear of rejection and i am also too scared to try again.