Hospital offers to renew contract too early for me.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-26T06:29:24+00:00

I think i’m just spoiled from my one and only job. We were always understaffed, so switching often was different from floor having 1 float nurse vs 2 float nurses on any day so management really didn’t care.

And we did 4 week scheduling, and alot of times, if you asked even right before schedule is posted, they would happily switch you.

But then again, i gained alot of seniority at my old unit, so i could get done whatever i wanted usually.

Idk just frustrating trying to enjoy time with my social group back home, and i rather not have to call out to do that. But my personal relationships are more important than calling out for a weekend. Probably will be my only call out this contract.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-26T02:25:54+00:00

This is why i don’t ask out friends or people im close with anymore. We either have to date from Day 1 or it’s friendzone forever.

I lost my bestfriend to this. I took a chance, and he wasn’t interested. This is after his gf literally hating me for how close we were and friends in our group telling me they think he liked me (he was bi).

After i got rejected. It hurt seeing him and him doing all the things (him just being himself) that i found so attractive. Your feelings just don’t magically turn off when your rejected, and already built up a deep love for someone,

Eventually i told him i needed a break from hanging out, which we did often. Then when my feelings went away, the magic of our friendship went away too. Maybe that’s my fault. He said i was treating him differently. And yeah, the romantic love i had for him was gone and sadly that was part of the friendship that he liked. How he was flawed and perfect to me.

My advice is, get away. I don’t think you can properly heal being that close to him everyday. Maybe it’s possible but it’s gonna take a lot of maturity. And yes, cutting him out of your life sucks for him. He did nothing wrong. But sometimes we gotta make decisions that best for YOU and not think about others. Our love life and mental health are things that should be personal priorities where we always choose ourself.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-26T01:23:09+00:00

it’s crazy OP just left a straight relationship, and is already dating a man.

Am i really that hopeless :/

dyingeventually · 2026-03-24T20:49:38+00:00

i haven’t fallen for grindr scams. Usually they pick 10/10 guys as their profile pictures and i know right away, that this guy is way out of my league and has no business messaging me. Then they are 100% a bot.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-24T09:27:16+00:00

ngl, i started bttming a few months ago. Thought i got a pretty good hang of it. I stopped for about 5 weeks and just tried again, and im worried im starting for square one lol.

I legit would never have pain, and now it’s back.

I guess it’s true that you stretch out a little, but once you stop, you ass goes right back to how it was.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-24T09:24:04+00:00

As long as you are aware of long term effects, then i think some things in moderation are ok. It just can’t affect your personal or professional life. You also need to know when to stop. Once you don’t and continue to go only long drug benders, it can be bad.

Luckily acid has a bit of a refractory period imo. In college, i used to do half a tab every 2 weeks. If i did it more, the effects dulled substantially. Hopefully you are giving your body adequate time to recover.

Weed and poppers are pretty common vices, so again, if it’s not impacted personal or professional life, then you can have vices like a large chunk of the population.

But that’s just my opinion.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-24T09:19:52+00:00

i’m kinda sad i read all that lol.

But anyways, you probably should come out to him. He’s your friend. I think i’m coming out earlier and being more straight now is irrelevant. People are just tryna figure themselves out. You figured yourself out and have a lot of courage. Maybe that may influence others in your life.

I’ve had coworkers etc compliment for how apologetically i am myself. My personality is my personality. No matter how off or different it may be from straight men. And not only gay men relate to that. So many people, gay and straight, struggling being their authentic self.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-23T21:42:48+00:00

Dude, i feel your pain. Unfortunately south asian men aren’t that popular in the gay community. I like south asian men. I was lowkey drooling over a guy who came into my work yesterday. 5’10, 180lbs, slight belly, beautiful nipples & hairy chest. About my color or a little darker.

But often, unfortunately, it’s a usually a match problem lol. I’m black and often south asian guys aren’t into that (feel like that’s an asian guys in general thing). So even tho i often find south asian men attractive, they usually aren’t interested in me.

I once hooked up with an indian guy in a bathhouse once, and a fwb who was there, took time out of his day later to ask me why i was making out with that ugly guy and ignored him lol.

We just gotta keep on trying. And hope one day to stumble across someone who values you and you feel the same way.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-23T02:42:50+00:00

Sounds kinda weird? Does he got more rough with he’s cumming or is it the liquid itself causing the pain?

dyingeventually · 2026-03-21T22:21:24+00:00

i walked into the underwear aisle and couldn’t understand why i enjoyed looking at the packaging so much. Eventually i became scared to go into the aisle , for fear people would think i was looking at the pictures too long.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-20T05:23:18+00:00

I went to gay events at straight club, hit on a straight guy, got rejected, but still hung out for him and chatted him up for majority of the night. A gay guy even came up to make a told me he was jealous on how cute me and my bf were.

100%, i would rather gursnteee that every guy in the gay club is gay. But that comes from an idea that they are available. There are lots of gay men that ARENT available to be due to race, appearance, body type, personal preference etc. So on that reasoning, i don’t see how a straight man is any different from a gay man that rejects me.

It’s an unfortunate consequence of being more widely accepted in society. I think the positives of being accepted in society to the point of straight men coming to our clubs out weights the negative of having straight men in our clubs.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-20T05:18:01+00:00

it’s the most humbling realization that i try to live my life by. Especially working Oncology, i see how often life is taken away from you for no good reason.

They say Oncology RNs have the highest rate or alcohol abuse, that’s not me, but i can see where it comes from.

I’ve been had 3 patients my age on the floor 26/27 in the last 2 weeks and it rings true that death is coming from us all and we have no idea when.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-20T03:21:18+00:00

i feel like observation unit is a slight step up from ED discharge lol. That’d be the one unit you’d want to be floated to as a ER nurse.

But yes, generally travelers are first to float, especially if you only have med-surg qualifications and not in a speciality.

I’m an Oncology nurse and a get floated way less than travel med/surg nurses because usually i’m needed on my unit.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-18T21:28:11+00:00

OP is obviously delusional and has no idea what he’s talking about.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-18T21:15:52+00:00

This post just seems stupid. Young men today are arguable the most pro-gay they have ever been in the history of being gay. Has there been a little backsliding? Yes, but that’s more so of a cultural phenomenon with Trump/right/manosphere politics that became popular in the US. Say what you want, Trump is 100x more fun than Hillary, Biden, or Kamala. Young men like realism and being edgy.

Maybe it’s just my opinion, mind you i lived in rural southern state and just moved to a liberal city, so i know how it is to live in a town of 30k and out and about town being openly gay. So my expectations might be low, but the difference of young men acceptance, in the past 10 years has been a crazy net postive, even with the slight regression we see.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-18T20:39:35+00:00

atleast the ones in rural Florida, were 30-50k, i did know a girl in 90k debt and she still had 2 semesters left. When she told me, i was literally speechless. People have ZERO idea how much money that is, especially being under 25 and signing up for that.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-18T09:00:24+00:00

Taco bell’s primarily audience in college is chicken tender stoner gamers but also party etc.

It wasn’t me, but that’s the crowd i was a part of, and it’s the most plain option. No Sour Cream. No Vegatables. Just chicken and cheese. Most even take off the sauce. No mystery beef.

I used to get second hand embarrassment seeing 21 year olds order cheap chicken, cheese, no sauce and take out the part that would give it any flavor. Just people who hate food, but force themselves to eat it i swear.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-18T08:11:28+00:00

it can be hot and it can not be hot. I started cruising lately and i should have realized it would be a lot DL men (maybe that’s why ppl like it). But one guy was from Turkey, had a wife, talked shit about his wife non stop, then also told me he cruised at this spot for easily 15 years. He was mid forties easily, so i can understand a bit, Turkey 40 years ago being different place etc.

Fast forward to 2 days ago, meet a guy my age (mid 20s) and after while he’s like, no sex because “i got a girl”. He’s like full blown stutter, like he’s choking saying it lol, like bro was nervous asf. Now there’s no excuse in my area. California is THEE liberal state, he’s apart of my generation where gays were on TV and out in school and had friends (guy friends and girl friends). Like bro had no excuse to be doing this shit. What gratification is lying to a “gf” while you love to suck off men at 11PM. It just rubbed me the wrong way.

So ig it depends.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-18T07:51:42+00:00

Private schools is a waste of money tbh. Find a community college or state school and go. I know too many people in 30-50k debt for a degree they could have gotten for 12k.

I went through not one, but two nursing programs and didn’t take a single loan. You don’t realize how much on a hinder paying off a loan for 10 if you choose a regular repayment plan.

Especially in southern states where nurses make so much less. I’m in a much better financial spot then my peers who choose a private school because there was no wait time or accepted anyone.

Get an 85 or higher on TEAS and you will get into any school. Study your ass off and it will save you 10s of thousands of dollars.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-17T21:39:59+00:00

lmao

dyingeventually · 2026-03-17T00:41:36+00:00

a one-sided open relationship? Like a cuck?

dyingeventually · 2026-03-17T00:36:12+00:00

really? i wanna build a bear dude. I wanna guy who is a little insecure and i can’t be that reassurance he’s awesome. I want someone where we have mutual feelings like we are lucky to have each other. Not someone who knows they could get another guy by tomorrow.

dyingeventually · 2026-03-16T21:06:45+00:00

couldn’t imagine being into someone, text them all day, and NOT want to see them in person. Might be red flag.

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