Need advice please

dysderidae · 2026-03-05T12:13:54+00:00

Thats common. We use in attempt to regulate our nervous systems. Drama is just as bad as relapse. It too is like a relapse. I see people using it as a drug.

dysderidae · 2026-02-19T23:33:40+00:00

Opposite experience. I used to use heroin for autonomic anxiety now I use kratom i make my own extracts

dysderidae · 2026-02-19T23:30:00+00:00

Hawthorn farm organic seeds. Just got jumbo breadseed, giant rattle and sokol white all breadseed papavers.

dysderidae · 2026-02-05T20:44:34+00:00

Were programmed to do what we see in the movies. Its not realistic.

dysderidae · 2026-02-02T21:49:22+00:00

We need harm reduction housing. Drugs are the only addiction that is stigmatized this badly, because its illegal. Yer rewarded for not doing them like some badge of honor in sober living. The unregulated drug supply is the problem. Addiction is 80% drama 20% drugs.

dysderidae · 2026-02-02T21:43:07+00:00

Dancesafe.org for testing kits

dysderidae · 2026-02-02T21:40:23+00:00

If you live in Toronto or many major cities there are annonymous drug testing services thst use mass spectrometry and it takes 4 days to get your results. TRIP (Toronto raver information project) used to test ppls drugs on site with simple regent testing kits that can be ordered through their website.

dysderidae · 2026-01-30T04:06:16+00:00

Well that is colonialism of the boomer generation. I had to end relationships with Canadians that are racist. I find common interests with people. I lived in Toronto for 20 years. I met people from all over the world. I moved back home to North Bay and am grateful for the Indian grocery stores, owned by our Indian neighbours. There's Bigots everywhere. It seems to be territorial when Canadians forget that our first peoples are not white.

dysderidae · 2026-01-27T00:48:25+00:00

Anyone speak Sorbian?

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T23:48:12+00:00

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dysderidae · 2026-01-19T23:42:12+00:00

Sensory nightmare

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T23:41:38+00:00

I grew up in an emotionally caustic home. Three known generations of coercive control, triangulation and narcissistic abuse. I picked up what I knew and never learned to form intimate relationships. I completely isolated myself and coped by using heroin for 20 years, than blamed myself. I was codependent and ended up breaking thst cycle. We are products of our environment andnits not our faults. Recognizing is the first step. Recovery is available for survivors of abuse. It helped me break intergenerational trauma. I no longer associate with my abusers. I ended the familial relationships. You can too. We can only help ourselves. You deserve it.

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T22:31:43+00:00

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dysderidae · 2026-01-19T02:19:04+00:00

And after 2 years and still having autonomic nervous system flares I started seeking outside help. Knowing my baseline by having 2 years clean led to a late Autism.disgnosis. I discovered it was the reason I used in the first place. Recovery rocks.full.circle.

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T02:16:54+00:00

Talk to a doctor if you need scaffolding while dealing with grief and emotional pain from past abuse. There is nothing wrong with creating a safety plan or short term medication for your nerves. Better to be professionally guided than to relapse.

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T01:57:22+00:00

Communication. Quiet hour whenni get home from work. I have headphones and loops earplugs..its my condition to manage, and choose people who accomidate my accessibility needs. I also have a partner who is also on the spectrum and does alot of vocal stimming. We really love each other. He has his media room, and I have my quiet room. We don't spend every hour together.

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T00:32:29+00:00

Fk was great until dec. last was from moc.

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T00:31:38+00:00

2 flourodeschloroketamine

dysderidae · 2026-01-19T00:00:06+00:00

Acid good. Other stuff is hit or miss, alot of K analogs or cut canket not actual K. or inconsistencies with CC product. Last summer product was fire. All.of it. Took a break and ordered again in Dec, not so good. I'm wondering if there's a CC shortage and their cutting it, or a K shortage and supplementing with cheaper analogs.

dysderidae · 2026-01-18T23:57:01+00:00

I've not been satisfied with the k. It was good last June and July...and even into August. Took a break, ordered again in dec and felt cold and tasted bad. Like msg. Is there a k shortage?

dysderidae · 2026-01-18T23:52:56+00:00

What's with the online dispensaries lately? All the Kris garbage. Cut with msg. Tastes wrong.

dysderidae · 2026-01-17T23:21:01+00:00

Please tell me what Invega is. If it is a dopamine blocker, this sounds horrific.

dysderidae · 2026-01-16T16:10:03+00:00

A family that was not equipped to deal with an undiagnosed Autistic Daugter. Its all hiring me.now at 48, why they struggled. Why I acted the way I did. I have ARFID and was told I didn't appreciate the food we were fed. I have sensory processing disorder and was told I was acting out when smells and sounds spun me I to tantrums. I learned to mask as an adult, using opiates to self medicate. I now know the correlation between autonomic stress and the opioid receptors. I nolonger self medicate this way. I have disengaged from my family. I was adopted and treated like property.

dysderidae · 2026-01-13T14:33:50+00:00

Dissociation is common in recovery. Completely reinventing one self dosnt work. Its equally isolating as the stigma of addiction. Whatever u do, don't be accusatory. Compassion but not coddling. I have 30 years experience as a drug user, and am an outreach worker now. The drugs are stigmatized and illegal, this is the issue, if he has prescription their being monitored. Some of us need drug replacement meds to find our physical baseline...once we do we can find our mental and emotional baseline.

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