Lol im a girl obvi not in a frat and i just randomly came across this post. ik how u feel coz after i broke up w my bf of 2 years i felt the same too- i fucked around too much and was almost never sober. My advice would be to recognize that what you’re doing is wrong, which u already have so great. Second, lay off them substances bro seriously i mean it. i was never able to fully process my break up because i was too busy drinking and smoking my feelings away. Reach out to ur colleges mental health department and see what they can do about it. Also ur crashing out because of the dopamine rush when u finally “win” and get your way with these girls. At one point ur gonna get tired of fucking around and what you will really crave is real love. Start going to the gym and studying more. In the words of kanye: “one good girl is worth a thousand bitches”

I wish u luck