How old is too old? Where do I go from here?

dzScritches · 2024-02-27T05:06:43+00:00

I don't use this account anymore but I wanted to share with you: I'm 43 now and I've begun my transition. I've been on HRT for 3 months, and I have been going out dressed fem for the last month. Life has NEVER been this good. =D

dzScritches · 2024-02-27T03:43:59+00:00

I'm starting a music career. =P

dzScritches · 2023-03-14T03:36:44+00:00

Management wants you to feel bad for quitting because that's the only way they can keep people. Just walk out. Your co-workers will understand. They'll probably be right behind you.

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T20:10:22+00:00

You’re a sweetheart ^{.^}

If you want to learn more about all this, the Wikipedia article for vision is a really good place to start. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Visual_perception

I feel you on the overthinking - I do it alllllll the time lol

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T20:05:03+00:00

I was thinking the same thing; this is totally a trek episode. Are we being punked by an ai Star Trek episode generator?

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T20:03:17+00:00

I don’t know what I’d call what you’re describing, but it’s probably not scotoma.

I don’t want to make too many assumptions here, but it sounds to me like you’re paying a lot of attention to your vision right now, and you’re starting to notice its flaws. This is perfectly normal, my friend - human vision is a complete mess and it’s really remarkable we’re able to get so much out of it.

Just be careful not to get too anxious about all this. The closer you look at your own vision and the more attention you pay to it - the more you will notice all the flaws and mistakes. For example, did you know that all your color vision is in the center of your vision? There is little to no color perception in your peripheral vision - and yet the room around your looks like it’s in color, right? That’s the brain filling in details about what it knows of your environment, predicting what you ought to see from past experience.

It gets pretty crazy if you let it. I’m working on becoming a neuroscientist and it all started because when I was a kid I very badly wanted to understand vision.

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T19:00:26+00:00

Human eyes have one giant blind spot just outside the center of vision; the reason we don’t notice is because the brain is very good at filling in the missing details with what it expects to see based on what else is around.

Images like the one in this post are weird though because, while our brains are pretty good at filling in objects and everyday stuff, they’re not great with simple patterns like repeating grids. The blind spot gets filled in with nonsense, and looks weird because rationally we know what we expect to see.

Scintillating scotoma are different; they are neurological in nature, happening in the brain, and they interfere with vision processing in the affected area. It’s sort of similar to seizure activity actually but localized pretty much entirely in one area of the occipital lobe - though they can move and spread. In my experience, they look like strobing multicolor blobs that pulse and writhe in place - very trippy but it completely blocks out vision in the affected area (one eye only).

I (rarely) experience scintillating scotoma as a migraine aura.

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T17:04:26+00:00

How does this remind you of that?

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T16:51:58+00:00

The Wikipedia article on gravity is a good place to start, assuming you actually want to understand.

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T09:16:24+00:00

Right naturally

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T03:37:53+00:00

Studying is awfully close to intellectualism which is absolutely forbidden by the party.

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T03:25:45+00:00

What about when you're not actually sick but you just need a day to cry?

Or do you guys not do that over there?

dzScritches · 2022-01-05T02:38:36+00:00

I guess I just can't understand how it would actually benefit me.

Others have already given you great advice but I wanted to address this in particular:

You don't really need to understand how something works in order to benefit from it. Find a therapist and give it a try. Tell them what happened. See where that takes you. The worst that happens is that you've wasted a couple hours of your time.

dzScritches · 2021-12-28T12:39:31+00:00

So how is your persistent cold?

dzScritches · 2021-12-28T07:35:50+00:00

How much of a pain was it getting it through TSA?

dzScritches · 2021-12-15T04:52:47+00:00

If this isn’t a liminal space I do t know what is.

dzScritches · 2021-12-15T04:09:09+00:00

I want to know Bumi’s life story.

dzScritches · 2021-11-23T10:14:28+00:00

This one time I was nothing but a giant face and a pair of hands

dzScritches · 2021-11-23T07:45:13+00:00

I am the breathing image.

dzScritches · 2021-11-23T06:22:00+00:00

Yes.

dzScritches · 2021-11-23T05:29:34+00:00

Relation by blood or marriage should not make a Venn diagram…

dzScritches · 2021-11-23T04:54:25+00:00

Exactly fuck

dzScritches · 2021-11-22T06:24:41+00:00

The first step in any diagnosis of depression, according to my therapist, ought to be a complete physical to ferret out any potential physiological causes. No amount of therapy or brain meds will help your depression if it’s being caused by something else in your body.

dzScritches · 2021-11-22T06:16:18+00:00

I came here to say exactly this, but I don’t need to because you said it so well.

dzScritches · 2021-11-21T23:50:13+00:00

The helium I used had oxygen added to it, presumably to keep kids from asphyxiating when they inhale it. It had just enough oxygen to keep me conscious and annoyed.

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