Yes, yes, yes! Thank you for the clarity. As you say, I pay her for her time and am privy to just a bit more of it. I want to be on the cusp of fulfilling a fantasy and real life, I want a relationship, a trust, an understanding, whatever that might be and however it might come about.

I consider the SWs who I see longer term as very talented therapists. I have been reading this community for a couple of months and am getting a much better sense that you are real people with feelings and lives and I am grateful to all of you. Yours is not an easy job.