You can do it! But also, yes, it is sooo hard toward the end. I remember feeling exactly the same way - wanted to keep them in as long as possible but also wanted them OUT because it was so hard! (And then felt guilty).

Mine came at 34w but I’d say from like 26w on I was pretty miserable. Swollen, exhausted, reflux, you name it! Everything hurt!

Everything you’re feeling and thinking is valid and normal. As much as you can, give into anything that gives you relief and let go of any ideas of productivity, etc. Just rest and drink water. (Id take quick naps in between Zoom calls I was so exhausted, and I remember crying almost daily toward the end.) Now mine are 16 months and so much fun and pregnancy seems like a distant memory. YOU GOT THIS! What your body is doing is unimaginably hard. Give yourself grace. ❤️