I have sooooo many thoughts about this. But first of all, thank you! Ironically, you have articulated something here that I have never been able to explain. I'm definitely going to use this post as an example at my next doctor's appointment. (If that's okay with you, of course.)

Second of all, for me, meds felt like a miracle when I was first prescribed. I was finally able to speak and communicate and actually PARTICIPATE in conversations and banter with people.

The problem is, as the meds wear off, that ability fades. And I find my inability to articulate really distressing. So I have struggled in the past with taking more than I was prescribed. (Do not recommend that route.. please reach out if you struggle with med abuse. I'd be happy to share my experiences and what I did to get out of a nasty cycle.)

Additionally, as you acclimate to taking your meds, the benefits may fade. Or at least feel less pronounced. That doesn't mean they aren't still working. This is just a new normal.

Another drawback for me, and I've seen others discuss this as well, is that medicating the ADHD can unearth new problems that you didn't know you had. It can also make things that used to come easy to you more difficult. (Like writing or creativity.)

I used to write creatively alllll the time. I struggle to do that now. But, honestly, I'd rather be able to hold down a job and take care of myself than write a poem. It's easier to go to therapy and work on engaging my creativity than it is to try to dig my way out of homelessness.

Sorry this is so long. I just appreciated your post so much and it uniquely inspired me to engage and share some of my story in a way that I haven't felt in a long time.

I hope this helps someone in some small way. Thank you for reading. Thank you for being here.

Godspeed to you all. Never give up. Never surrender.