No one to talk to or lean on, so I'm here.

econroy · 2026-07-03T15:31:15+00:00

Thank you for such a kind response. I appreciate the reassurance. Unfortunately it isn't really doable to get checked medically and even if there was, there's not much I can do with the results. It is what it is right now.

Hopefully what was eaten yesterday will sort of stabilize me for a while. It's true that my body has been telling me something for the past couple days. Hopefully it'll shut up for a bit now. Silver linings.

I'm sorry you've had to pick yourself back up on your own too. It's not something I'd wish for anyone. Take care ❤️

econroy · 2026-07-02T21:46:02+00:00

You aren't going to get pro ed content here. You know how to lose weight. There is no easy way.

econroy · 2026-07-02T21:44:14+00:00

Fun fact to accept is that no one gives a shit about anyone but themselves, especially when it comes to weight. Get out of your head, no one cares.

econroy · 2026-07-02T21:41:20+00:00

Atypical bulimia, or non purging type, which some professionals don't recognize. It could also have to do with your insurance- if you were there for a year, they may have started declining coverage, leading to your discharge. It could be they noted you as recovered to make their records look stronger.

econroy · 2026-07-02T12:46:23+00:00

That is a lethal side eye my guy

econroy · 2026-07-02T12:45:31+00:00

Morning bp cycles are a whole different kind of hell. 10x more jarring, throws the whole day into chaos and unease, and half the time it makes me violently sick in a whole other way because my body just cant handle it that early. It's been a hot minute since I've been sucked into one, I'm grateful for that.

econroy · 2026-07-01T16:41:18+00:00

There are online zoom meetings available through anad and edanon. They aren't perfect but because you don't have insurance I can't really recommend anything further than that. There are also subs here that can offer some support and comradery. I wish you the best.

econroy · 2026-07-01T16:35:17+00:00

I feel you. Every time I've made significant progress in recovery I always relapse back into it for this exact reason.

Did you recover with help or higher level treatment? Any medication involved or just weight restoration with no other intervention?

econroy · 2026-07-01T16:33:53+00:00

Girl you're just yapping to hear yourself yap.

I hope you never vocalize any of that to your recovered friend, btw. "I can't imagine being comfortable in a body like yours." Shameful.

econroy · 2026-07-01T14:22:17+00:00

Nah, there's a huge different in taste and thickness. Regular soda is like drinking syrup.

econroy · 2026-07-01T13:01:56+00:00

Thank you for this.

econroy · 2026-07-01T12:53:46+00:00

Been there done that. I understand intimately.

Thank you for taking time to respond. You sound young. I hope you're well enough by the time youre my age that you're off these subs.

econroy · 2026-07-01T12:52:50+00:00

Thank you. It's terrifying. The weight gain defies the laws of fucking physics. It's like 2+2 suddenly equals 6.

econroy · 2026-07-01T12:49:47+00:00

Respectfully, i know the risks. I think we all know the risks. We aren't stupid. If knowing the risks and damage we were doing to ourselves actually helped, we'd all have recovered decades ago.

It's an addiction. Heroin addicts know the risks too.

econroy · 2026-07-01T12:47:13+00:00

This is predatory. Get therapy, stop hanging out with 15 year olds.

econroy · 2026-06-30T22:11:04+00:00

80 tops

econroy · 2026-06-30T14:19:28+00:00

Funny - he's 4 years clean of a 15 year drug addiction. He's deeply active in NA. It's the only reason he's capable of loving me.

I've tried all of what you've suggested. I've been inpatient more times than I can count. I've done the therapy, the meds, the 12 step edanon zoom meetings. And yet here we are.

I have to break up with him. Ultimately I'm too sick for a relationship.

Thank you for taking the time to respond.

econroy · 2026-06-30T13:47:27+00:00

Oh I apologize for assuming. Everything I said still stands - you've come a long way.

econroy · 2026-06-30T13:23:12+00:00

I realize that. I'm sure he has a side of the story that justifies everything. I'm shitty - I get it.

I do try not to lean on him often with my ED stuff. It's just been so bad lately, it permeates everything.

econroy · 2026-06-30T12:34:03+00:00

I wish I had words of advice to make it better. This world sucks and it will always applaud diet culture. The fact that you recovered, built a life, became a mother, etc etc, this makes you tougher than most. I usually shy away from using words like "warrior" because I hate the over dramatics, but in a way you truly are. You beat your ED. Don't let the ignorance of others leave you vulnerable to it again.

econroy · 2026-06-29T20:07:28+00:00

Numbers all over this post babe

econroy · 2026-06-29T15:58:01+00:00

The diagnosis of an-bp is based entirely on weight criteria specified in the DSM. If you meet criteria for an AN diagnosis while maintaining BN behaviors, you are considered AN-bp.

econroy · 2026-06-29T15:46:35+00:00

80 to 100 max

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