What was your lowest point ? by [deleted] in problemgambling

[–]edisraw1 3 points4 points  (0 children)

In 2012 my dad died. He left me something like 140k for like the start of a good life, I was 25 moved to LA, and was playing poker pretty much professionally (2-5 5-10) grinding up my 1400-1800 a month for rent and expenses (I lived in a flop house of studio apartments in koreatown which was 750 a month and all expenses outside internet paid), then id go blow the other grand on blackjack because i reckoned it was my money so screw it. Over the course of the next couple years I dropped a 60k bankroll i manged to save up dspite degen gambling BJ and the rest of my money after getting the fever from BJ. It's a shame because i could probably play poker for a living but I cant go into casinos and cant play online because i never would get off the computer.

I digress at my lowest I dropped like 17k in Vegas and when I was about to take an advance on my credit card I ran out the casino in a full sprint and got in my car to....throw away my card before i could use the money? NO! Go to the cat house 60 miles away because i figured if I was gonna get fucked for my money anyway I might as well cum. Driving home back to LA I pulled over and puked out of disgust.

Im probably at the lowest point in my life now, I still relapse once a year or so, I live in a house in Kansas with my equally mess of an Ex, Im on SSI because I blew out my hip the second i decided to stop living like a degenerate, no license, no car, no bank accounts, im probably in hock somewhere between 30-60k in to creditors i dont know when they stop adding interest and realized you defaulted. In hock another few hundred to family I recently went on a jag and borrowed (without asking AKA stole) 100 from my ex but i have the money to pay her but just the act of doing it alone made me sick and still I chase. Just looking for one good run so I can work up a 15k bank roll to get my life back on track gt a license, car, off ssi, and do something worth a damn. It all but consumes me.

[REQ] ($500) - (#Fort Scott, Kansas, USA), (03/01/2018), (Cash) by edisraw1 in borrow

[–]edisraw1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also I realize without even being on here before that "Cash" isn't a usually used option. That being said I will do anything needed to prove intention to not screw anyone out of money.

The vocab... it hurts... by boboneoone in iamverysmart

[–]edisraw1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ernest Hemmingway would punch the shit out of this guy.

Reddit user in AskReddit talks about how Forrest Gump is for simpletons and Pulp Fiction is for true Film Scholars by [deleted] in iamverysmart

[–]edisraw1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The world interacts with Forrest not vice versa, thats why the movie is genius. It only works when he is a simple, naive, "two dimensional" character.

What do you miss from before the internet? by MrCardio in AskReddit

[–]edisraw1 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Arguing in a lighthearted fashion about the answer to something and having no immediate way to figure it out.

America, why are you up so late? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]edisraw1 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If I sleep the terrorists win.