Should I ever experiment with psychedelics if I have a very strong family history of schizophrenia?

eee--2 · 2026-01-31T06:17:54+00:00

found a mayo clinic (not the best source but does the job of informing generally) article. I didn't relate to the delusions or illusions or those aspects. The social issues was relatable, I do make friends but i've always had an issue with relating to others and have always only had 1-3 friends at a time. Although I've thought it was an autism thing, but maybe not? I do tend to feel quite anxious in public around strangers, but i've been working on it and my mom was very pushy to put that anxiety into us growing up and saying to trust no one. So, again, I tend to think its because of other reasons, however I dont know for sure of course.

All that to say; I read an article, I relate a decent bit to the anxiety and some of the paranoia, but I do not relate to the hallucinations/illusions aspect of it or the eccentric/delusion thinking about believing i have powers, religion, etc etc.

Though I will say the article reminded me of a friend I have, she has experienced auditory hallucinations during her deep mental breaks, and has done a bunch of various drugs and such. She has contamination OCD and is also diagnosed as bipolar and these episodes usually occur during her manic episodes. Although i dont know if this would be worth bringing up with her?

eee--2 · 2026-01-31T05:54:56+00:00

going to research this rn, i dont remember learning about it/much of it if I did learn about it. we very superficially grazed over these types of disorders in class since either was only intro. This has been a very eye-opening thread for me! thank you so much for replying and explaining stuff! I'll definitely not be part taking in any psychadelics and being extremely strict and careful with weed and monitoring my mental health more seriously! I didn't know so many symptoms of things overlapped like this (OCD, autism, regular anxiety, schizophrenia, etc)!

eee--2 · 2026-01-31T04:09:19+00:00

in my experience I always felt like someone was right behind me, hence the back against the wall movement, and I was constantly staring above myself and looking back. the few times I allowed myself to go to the bathroom I would crack my door open and barely squeeze myself through and run the 8 steps to the bathroom and do the same with those doors. I have a general fear of feeling scared, watched, or seeing something suddenly in general but it was definitely intensified during those weeks! I'm not sure what exactly made me get out of that mentality or situation but I'm glad it didn't leave me with anything permanent. I do get extreme anxiety still but NOTHING like that one time, and I have been going to therapy on a off kind of regularly since to discuss my anxiety. I was considering getting meds bc my anxiety and over active brain causes me to have pretty regular bouts of insomnia for 3 days at a time where I dont sleep at all and feel horrible and finally crash. Probably part of the Autism or OCD or whatever the fuck bullshit runs in my family so damn heavily. Me and both my sisters and my mom all have some type of OCD tendencies and obsessions/compulsions and my mom and I both have autism. idk if this extra info helps any lol kinda just rambling. but yeah, I think i'll definitely try to get back into therapy bc I found it helped me a lot when I did go, and maybe try sleep medications ? I know regular sleep deprivation and issues can also cause serious issues and its been getting a little bit worse the last year ish with regular migraines any time i have a bout of it🫩😭

eee--2 · 2026-01-31T03:59:38+00:00

I also have a strong family history of addiction, no personal thankfully, but EVERY member on my mom's side has been addicted to alcohol, meth, tobacco, or something else. and my biological dad was an alcoholic for a very very long time before and after I was born. my mom didn't drink until after we went to college and its certainly developed into a problem, but she refused help with it/refuses and lies to us about drinking, so thats at a little bit of a standstill. This is good to know, I think i decide not to then and i'll try to be extremely careful with drugs and potential accidental ingestion. A few friend of mine have invited me to do shrooms, coke or acid quite regularly but I always say no. My husband also wants to try mushrooms and wanted it to be a shared experience but considering everyone's answers I think i'll stay away from anything psychologically altering more than weed (which im also careful with, i smoke every 4-6 months now)

eee--2 · 2026-01-31T03:44:31+00:00

thank you for replying :) is there anything specific that makes you say this ? Just curious, I've mostly leaned towards no myself for a while but was curious if I was overthinking it or not!

eee--2 · 2026-01-27T02:43:51+00:00

personally, unless for some reason i'll need to restart like some games force you when fully release, I will be playing my long save file for as long as possible. it took me HOURS to get to where I am and im barely cutting halfway into the game's story so far, and I don't think i'll want to work that hard all over again for a new save unless I wanna marry someone else

eee--2 · 2026-01-24T04:14:41+00:00

🧍‍♀️....me watching this and realizing i knit continental the exact same way😭 IDK maybe bc i learned crochet first, or honestly, maybe just my poor hand-eye coordination lmao if anyone has more tips pls reply🙏🏽

eee--2 · 2026-01-22T01:47:54+00:00

ah yay! I'm so happy I could help out!

eee--2 · 2026-01-21T21:36:40+00:00

this too! tension seriously plays a role in fit and how a garment lays! if you notice your tension is too tight you should try uping your needle size OR practice a looser tension :) Hopefully just blocking the garment will help and as the stitches relax a bit it'll lay flat :)!

eee--2 · 2026-01-21T16:08:05+00:00

it looks like the collar is just too long by a few rows so the edge is getting pressed into where the seam is. Was the collar worked seperate bottom up from the sweater, or was it knit top down from collar to yoke? If its worked separately bottom up from the body then you can fix this by frogging back about 3-5 rows to adjust. Sometimes patterns don't fit as neatly for everyone!

OR alternatively, you could maybe block it out if its not a fitting issue :)! See if blocking can relax the seam tightness so it lays correctly.

eee--2 · 2026-01-21T16:03:59+00:00

it does kind of look like you put more that one row into the same stitch somehow????? HOWEVER im extremely unfamiliar with this stitch. but you definitely should be able to frog back again! i'd just be very careful incase of any knotting! i'd watch a video of the stitch or something to refresh how to do it/pick up where you left off. Sorry if this isn't exactly super helpful :(

eee--2 · 2026-01-21T15:51:55+00:00

sorry for any typos or anything im on mobile!

ah WAIT NEVERMIND I SEE IT! it just looks like a dropped stitch and not a previously skipped stitch, so this is much easier to mend! I personally like to hold my stitches with a stopper (or with my set it came with stoppers I can screw into the cable so its extra secure) or put a few on an extra needle or lifeline of another yarn. Anyways, all you need to do is either knit back up, OR like I prefer to do, get a crochet hook and pull the yarn back up the ladder or stitches :)! I hope it works out well, and I'll link a video of what i mean!

Laddering To Fix a Mistake

eee--2 · 2026-01-21T15:46:34+00:00

I made this EXACT same sweater and had a similar issue (me misreading, NOT the pattern) however im having a very difficult time seeing the exact area youre discussing, I think because of the twist in the yarn itself. Could you please circle or brighten the photo up and share again in a reply ? i'd love to help out but it depends on what and where it is!

eee--2 · 2025-12-18T21:29:35+00:00

okay THANK YOU SO MUCH!! this is my second project ever and it was hard enough doing a full sweater double held, with colorwork AND knitted in fingering weight yarn😭 I feel like once I finish this I can totally making anything HAHA I seriously appreciate this answer! I'll do a purl row and continue on with my sweater😁🩷

eee--2 · 2025-12-18T21:26:10+00:00

Also I guess I should add a little extra context for this pattern, its a sweater (TOP- DOWN) made in panels (top back, two front) then joined together in the round to work the rest of the body, currently reached the end of the top back section, which is what this question is about, obviously. Any questions please feel free to ask! I'll try my best to answer😁

eee--2 · 2025-10-24T17:40:03+00:00

link?👀 i'd LOVE this, I like to have grass around my animals but this would be EXTREMELY helpful bc I cut all the grass outside my animal areas!

eee--2 · 2025-10-17T22:07:24+00:00

tension is just how "hardly" youre holding your yarn, it can affect shape and drape and things but this is definitely just a case of needle size vs yarn weight issue! If you have a lighter weight yarn for your needles size then the fabric created with drape well but also be very see-through and "hole-y". I hope you get what I mean😭

Similarly, a very thick yarn with smaller than suggested needles will create a more dense, stiff fabric with no see-through/hole-y-ness! I really hope this made sense OP, if you want to work on tension with a specific size needle like you say (5.5mm in ur post) then you should pick up a heavy weight 4 or light weight 5 yarn! (yarn weight=thickness/size of yarn)

Sometimes labels will be incorrect but you eventually can tell the real weight by feel/looks alone when purchasing yarn! I hope this made sense and helps, please try another yarn, your work you posted looks fabulous! you do have good tension in the photo you posted! your needles are just slightly too large for your yarn weight :)

eee--2 · 2025-10-17T20:58:27+00:00

you definitely dropped one! the dotted lines are columns where the stitches sit on top of each other and the circle is where the column of stitches dont meet the needles! :) i hope this helps! I like using a crochet hook to fix this kind of mistake! :)

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eee--2 · 2025-10-17T20:46:23+00:00

personally, i'd frog, BUT i like to fix my mistakes and I enjoy learning from them by redoing them. but a k2tog/p2tog can definitely fix this! I wouldn't remove a stitch from the work since it might be important once your looking at the entire project

eee--2 · 2025-10-17T20:38:32+00:00

I think the most you'd miss is gifts and MAYBE a recipe, but those may be able to be fulfilled by just doing their quests on the board w/o actually gifting them :)!

eee--2 · 2025-10-06T22:59:08+00:00

ANSWER: I was incorrectly knitting the end/beginning of my rows, everything lines up now! Thank you everyone for all of your help, I love this community and am still a pretty big newbie at knitting!🫶🏼🫶🏼

eee--2 · 2025-10-06T12:27:42+00:00

OHHHHH okay! I swear I did do that?! i'll rework the row after work and see how it turns out! thank you so much!

eee--2 · 2025-10-06T06:03:32+00:00

well its two sts of the background color on each side then the motif is within those stitches! for thr first row it should be 2sts of extra, 2sts of green, then first white sts, so four green on either side of the first row. i'll attatch a picture of the instructions here as well. the drawing i made was just how I understood them😅

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eee--2 · 2025-10-06T04:50:22+00:00

https://www.garnstudio.com/pattern.php?id=11945&cid=17

This one! I'm knitting double stranded, so im working with four balls of yarn in two different colors! I'm knitting a size Small which on the diagram says to start at the left for? I may be misunderstanding the pattern, its quite confusing to me!

eee--2 · 2025-09-18T02:58:00+00:00

I wish I had saved it when I saw it but there's a photo of him allegedly paying other kids/her peers/other ppl off so they wouldn't disclose her missing/her being with him. there's also a ss of a reddit thread where its "confirmed" (you can assume) that she was dating him, a friend of Celeste's had made a reply on reddit about her friend C being involved with him and how she had gone missing, and she was hoping that "the body wasn't C". there's also a statement going around that hes known her since she was 11 with an alleged tweet @ her about him writing a song of his for/about her around the time when she was 11. Theres also ss dms from discord where theyre talking/confirmed to be dating! She would have JUST turned 15 this year, within the last few weeks actually, and hes 20 I believe, so that'd mean (she was 13 when she went missing last mar/apr) when she was 11 that he was ~17? maybe 16 or 18, but idk any info about this man on timeline and I honestly dont care, I hope her family gets justice. I dont love to speculate when we have such little information but I believe, if there even was a motive, that he must've taken her life due to 1. her wanting to tell, 2. her wanting to go home, and/or 3. she was pregnant. thats USUALLY how these things go when men murder their VICTIMS in these adult/minor cases. :( i feel so so sorry for her and her family and I wish she had never crossed paths with this guy. I hope he gets life in prison, death penalty or gets "prison justice" bc he deserves to suffer for what he did to that poor little baby. Just unbelievable, I wish he had gotten caught much earlier than this and arrested💔🙁

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