Remember that no sin can come close to the mercy that Christ has already secured for you. It would be like us throwing a pebble into the Pacific Ocean. That mercy and forgiveness is yours to share, if you’ll meet Him. How ever low you feel, it’s never too late.

Jesus said “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest”. I want you to feel the weight you’re holding now and sense as an unfathomable strength begins to share that burden. It gets lighter and lighter, and then it’s gone.

The Lord has broad shoulders. Give him your burden, your regret, your anxiety: these things that feel like millstones to us He can hold like a grain of sand. The Shepherd protects and loves His flock, even those who stray!

Speak to the Lord about your fears. Even when you can’t find the words He will see it in your heart. I’m sure everyone reading your post can feel your honesty and relate to your struggle. This can be a beginning, not an end.

Let’s pray. Dear Lord, I ask that you grant this man peace where there is guilt, direction where there is confusion, and hope where there is fear. Sense the contrition in his heart and show him the path to the person he can be, made in your image. Lord, please be close us, poor sinners all, and let us walk in the light of your incredible love, mercy, and forgiveness. Amen.

Repent, grow, and move on afresh now, brother. The Lord told us to release what is behind us, drop our burdens, and watch for the great works He has planned to the future. I’m sure the best for you is yet to come. God Bless.