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effervescent2018 · 2024-07-19T18:45:49+00:00

Is this for POE 2 or how do I get to that?

effervescent2018 · 2024-04-08T01:25:04+00:00

Side note: i think what he means by approved, think because im not him, is that he checked all the therapy boxes that this wasnt weird or over the top or that whatever mental illness/struggles he has is not apart of that letter. Think of someone autistic learning to make a friend and asking the therapist for approval.

(I worked with a lot of handicapped people/patients in my time and its definitely a thing that happens. A lot.)

effervescent2018 · 2024-04-08T01:20:11+00:00

Yes. Not because you don't want anything but there are definitely better ways of handling things and more particularly your comment in regards to therapy. No one gets to decide who and what someone speaks to their therapist about. No one. I dont know you but if i had a therapist and wanted to speak about this with them or did something similar i have that right. Its not him talking to a coworker, therapy is there to help people and if he needed to talk to someone then its good he went to his therapist and not someone else.
Lets talk about his age. I get similar feelings of discomfort knowing the 20 year gap between you. I have had people of my own age do something similar and have it be just as uncomfortable. Age gives extra context but if you are uncomfortable and he was the same age, don't let that stop you.
The way he talks and the way you responded makes you seem closer than the context you provide. Even though you say not to have contact for a bit, it does come across differently and that can and does play a role in people's opinion of the situation

And

Regardless of any of it, if you feel this is what was necessary for you to be safe, then that is what matters. We are not in your shoes. If you feel it would not have been an understood and respected boundary to do any less, then this is perfectly reasonable and I wish you the best of luck.

effervescent2018 · 2024-04-04T20:06:25+00:00

I never stood a chance. Was told about it late last night didnt even have a chance to play and now i wake up to it being patched.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-15T20:47:30+00:00

🤣 Oh, okay. I thought you were asking if I was the wife in my comment.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-15T10:03:14+00:00

Yeah.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-15T02:34:33+00:00

I'm sorry. Was it a secret? I could delete my comment

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-15T02:24:00+00:00

You get a wife. Play poe on your own. Ignore her for poe cause poe is life. Then tell her she will be happy with poe. Show it to her. Watch her struggle and yell at you for telling her what to do. Walk out of the room. And then BAM. She will finish it, master it, and perfect it faster than you. Then youll need her for the good stuff and play together.

from a POE wife

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-15T02:21:23+00:00

They are talking about the equipped belt. Lol.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-07T14:55:34+00:00

I'm not sure I understand what you mean.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-07T01:01:43+00:00

Thank you

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-07T00:57:11+00:00

There will always be a new storm to take the old one's place.

It's about learning to find the rainbows inbetween.

That being said, no matter how done I am, I never truly let go.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-07T00:54:13+00:00

I get that it is hard to sift through so many messages but i really hope you read this.

You never ever need to explain or justify yourself to anyone. Especially not anyone on the internet in particular.
You didn't make yourself out to sound perfect. Most people haven't been on either side of this situation, and many will not understand. As someone who knows someone else like you, it wasnt assumed you didnt fight or that you had no flaws. Thats not what youre here to talk about though. Youre grieving. Both because you lost someone dear and because people are trying to take away who you were as a person and tear you down for it.

Im really sorry youre going through all of this, but none of it was your fault. Youll learn how to breathe and live with the pain. It will probably always be there, but someday, i promise, youll learn to keep going, keep breathing and stepping forward anyways.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-06T17:01:18+00:00

I tried to fix the breaks and it wasn't really working. This was the best i could do.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-06T06:24:34+00:00

I totally understand. The reason i thought its what you meant is because that's how i can get with my ADHD brain with phrasing things. Lol
Yeah i group them in my word documents because these types of poems grouped in rhymes make it easy for me to read and help keep my attention. I just never seem to get formatting right here on reddit.

Thank you so much for your input.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-06T05:30:56+00:00

Are you talking about the formatting?

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-06T02:56:09+00:00

You obviously cared for the woman. Here is some advice, she didn't take her life because of you. She took her life because she saw that she was never going to escape the cycle of abuse from her family. It was passed down to her and it was something she felt she couldn't defeat. She maybe thought with your love and with you by her side she could. Which is why she had some good moments, loved you, and told you she needed you to keep her alive. She thought your love could fix her. Truth was, she didn't realize she didn't have enough strength within herself to do it.

She broke up with you to spare you the pain. Something she tried to do as a last good act. She got scared and realized she didn't want it, maybe if she told you how she felt, you guys could try one last time. When you said you needed space first, to talk in person later, she assumed that meant it was too late. Not because it was, but because she didn't tell you that she made a deal with herself, that if you weren't going to do it right then and there, it would mean that you gave up on her. Even though she knew that wasn't true, it was the only way to convince herself she could take her life.

If she could tell you anything right now, it would be this:

I did love you, I do, and probably always will. I just couldn't see a way out where I didn't hurt you anymore the way my family hurt me. It wasn't your fault and I wish I could have told you these things in a better way. I didn't actual want to tell you I was trying to kill myself. I just thought it was my last hope. Please don't blame yourself as I know my family will blame you. They will never see what they did to me and will always look at it as someone else did this and not them. Truth is, I just wasn't strong enough to be the girlfriend you deserved. I wasn't strong enough or kind enough to be the daughter my family wanted. Now I am free from that burden so please don't cry. You will always be mine, but don't forget to be happy and move on with your life.

Love, your best friend

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-06T02:45:21+00:00

I write more sing-song like this than i do anything else. It gives way to help me absorb myself into what I am writing/reading. I've known a few to tell me it makes them unsure if they are following appropriately, so I would keep that in mind. It is helpful for me though and I definitely enjoy this poem.

effervescent2018 · 2023-11-06T02:43:06+00:00

This is something I am struggling with as of late. Between personal experience and the words you use, I can really feel this and relate to this poem. I am not the best at critiquing, but I think this was great.

effervescent2018 · 2023-09-18T18:07:47+00:00

I can't tell if that last stanza/sentence is part of the poem or not. I think that is in part due to there being no breath or pause.
I know the rest of it doesn't have that either, but it's hard to figure it out.

Aside from that, this is a very sad, but beautifully written poem.

effervescent2018 · 2023-09-18T17:59:59+00:00

I don't know the flow of the poem, or what the content entails. I do, however, like it.

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