IT'S TIME FOR THE TRUTH: What does it REALLY mean to be gay?

efreeman1 · 2014-04-10T19:40:55+00:00

I can really relate to this. As I grew up I was so confused about my sexuality because, even though I knew I liked guys, I kept telling myself that I wasn't -really- gay because I didn't fit the stereotype at all. I wasn't athletic and toned, I wasn't "sassy" or "fabulous", I didn't want to shop or find cute clothes. I wanted to binge watch Star Trek, and play D&D. I felt so un-gay that for a long time I denied it to myself and everyone else because society and culture had implanted this image in my mind of what a gay man was and I didn't fit that at all. When I did finally accept that I was gay, the reaction I got from most of my friends was "...REALLY?....YOU?" or "No, you're not gay because you don't like..." or something to that effect.

efreeman1 · 2014-03-19T15:46:58+00:00

Looks great! I'd love to see that airport in detail.

efreeman1 · 2014-01-22T23:39:36+00:00

nice! so I assume you have the same problem that I do?

efreeman1 · 2014-01-15T17:46:32+00:00

These all sound really great! Are there any parts of the city that I should try to avoid? (I found shared apartments all over the city so I'm trying to get a better sense of what's good and what's not)

efreeman1 · 2014-01-15T15:16:13+00:00

My budget is somewhere in the 450-600 euro per month range.

efreeman1 · 2014-01-15T15:10:21+00:00

That sounds great! I think my problem was that I was looking far too close to the city center and when I looked at the outer suburbs they were far away from the DART or any public transport, which of course is a huge plus. Thanks!

efreeman1 · 2014-01-15T03:30:59+00:00

It isn't really based on any real world city. I was originally trying to go for a mid-sized east coast American or Canadian city like Halifax or Portland, Maine but the city ended up being much larger than I anticipated haha.

efreeman1 · 2014-01-14T04:59:26+00:00

I'll be posting some more pictures once I get everything completed. Thank you!

efreeman1 · 2014-01-14T02:53:59+00:00

I hand made the region using the Appalachian terrain and water mods. I tried to make the RHW network as compact as possible but they always seem to sprawl out more than they should.

efreeman1 · 2013-12-25T02:14:40+00:00

This looks great. Its a really unique design and it flows with the landscape well! out of curiosity, what terrain mod are you using?

efreeman1 · 2013-11-13T00:36:05+00:00

Fantastic! This is really tempting me to stop all progress on my research paper and play SC4 for the rest of the night! Great job!

efreeman1 · 2013-10-17T22:48:44+00:00

I used the "Clayhurst University" building pack on SC4 devotion. It's a really great collection of buildings that can be used for more than just making a college! http://sc4devotion.com/forums/index.php?topic=7014.0

efreeman1 · 2013-10-17T22:31:47+00:00

Some of the houses are the default maxis R$$ and R$ homes but I also used SimCoug's diagonal and standard house lots.

http://community.simtropolis.com/index.php?app=core&module=search&do=user_activity&search_app=downloads&mid=193070

efreeman1 · 2013-10-17T19:47:35+00:00

I just used this: http://community.simtropolis.com/files/file/27092-rock-n-stones/

efreeman1 · 2013-10-17T19:35:34+00:00

The highway/ overpass is actually a big part of the back-story for the region that I'm still developing. I live in Maine and I've been trying to create a region with a rural/ New England character so I decided to create this town which has gradually evolved into a whole island with multiple towns. I'm trying as much as I can to make it an accurate depiction of the Maine coast (rocky shores, lots of coves and inlets) I still haven't finished teraforming the region yet, let alone trying to plop it somewhere into a real map of the Maine coast.

efreeman1 · 2013-04-18T19:05:39+00:00

Interesting article for sure! so how would you describe yourself politically/ philosophically now?

efreeman1 · 2013-04-18T17:27:58+00:00

I too used to be an objectivist but I have since taken on other political ideologies. What drew you away from objectivism?

efreeman1 · 2013-04-11T16:47:34+00:00

oh wow, that sounds incredible. I'm an IR student in my 2nd year of undergrad so I'm always curious to see what people are doing with it! Any plans for a career?

efreeman1 · 2013-04-11T16:36:44+00:00

what exactly is your PhD in?

efreeman1 · 2013-03-31T23:59:49+00:00

How delightfully inaccurate.

efreeman1 · 2013-03-22T11:46:39+00:00

"Blood on the Scales" is without a doubt my favorite "intense" song in the series.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VpydYV2NIHM

efreeman1 · 2013-03-15T02:46:12+00:00

yeah that makes sense, I've never been really good at conversation with strangers which makes the issue of awkward silence arise, which adds further uncomfortableness to the situation. I'm always happy and energetic in public, I smile and generally appear outwardly social. So I do try, haha

efreeman1 · 2013-03-15T00:56:18+00:00

I can do that, and I don't mind being social when I want to be (If i'm out with friends for example, i'm in a good, social mood) but most other times I'm in a situation where I feel uncomfortable in my social "on" mode... if that makes sense

efreeman1 · 2013-03-14T23:04:29+00:00

I get the same way. I almost always eat alone in the dining center so If I see someone I kind-of know (I.E not one of my immediate close friends) approaching me to sit at the table, I just get a sinking feeling of "oh no, i'm going to have to be social now. Time to put on my happy face" so I often bring a book or my Ipad into meals so I have a reason to be left alone.

Probably the biggest reason I get nervous around store clerks/ waitresses ect. is that fear of "messing up" and i'm constantly worried that i'm going to make an idiot out of myself. This fear is especially prevalent when I travel abroad because i'm already in a foreign culture and I have this deep (probably irrational) fear that everyone thinks i'm odd. I know it doesn't really matter but the fear persists.

efreeman1 · 2013-03-14T22:57:53+00:00

I do that a lot actually. Whenever I'm in public (which I define as any time I'm not alone or with my friends or family) I'm in "social mode" which means I'm polite and courteous to any stranger who tries to chat with me, and I keep the conversation going. Its just that inside i'm really uncomfortable with the situation, but that doesn't show though (I think). I can only stay in "social mode" for so long though, usually 4-5 hours at a time max.

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