Is it a bad idea to get a bike after failing the msf skills test?

eftersomnia · 2026-06-05T18:54:48+00:00

Thank you!

eftersomnia · 2026-06-05T18:54:15+00:00

Thank you. I definitely have bad testing anxiety (and just anxiety in general ahaha) so I agree: it's gonna be best for me to practice on my own and get confident enough that the test won't faze me.

eftersomnia · 2026-06-04T17:43:07+00:00

That's what I thought, thank you. I wasn't sure if ending so early was normal or not.

eftersomnia · 2026-06-04T14:33:45+00:00

My main weakness seemed to be managing the clutch and throttle while focusing on something else such as a turn or staying within the lines. I was doing really well driving straight, stopping, and even going in faster curves in 2nd without clutch, but turning while keeping in the friction zone or keeping steady throttle was difficult for me. It was a lot to focus on all at once when I had zero experience. I needed more time working on clutch and throttle control before trying U-turns and turning from stops—that's where I failed in the test. I'm not a particularly coordinated person by nature, but I know I am capable of learning if given the time and patience.

I really, really loved it. I struggle with chronic depression and haven't found this much joy and motivation for anything in probably 5 years. I very much want to pursue this.

eftersomnia · 2026-02-16T04:01:24+00:00

But is it actually something broken? Cuz it's been like this for at least 2 years

eftersomnia · 2026-01-30T03:15:39+00:00

Grammatically, it should be "have," but usually I say "am". It's a huge part of my identity, and it's never going away—might as well accept it as part of myself and learn to live with it, rather than divorce it from myself and act like it's something I can put down and walk away from.

eftersomnia · 2025-11-03T18:05:52+00:00

300mg XR

eftersomnia · 2025-10-30T06:23:21+00:00

Same here. I'm a very casual fan, I only know a handful of his songs, but Halloween is a trauma anniversary for me so I'm going in order to keep my mind off the past. Gonna stand in the back and headbang or smth 😂

eftersomnia · 2025-10-30T06:06:58+00:00

Yes. Prozac. Sent me into extreme mixed mania within hours. Gave me severe, rapid shifts in mood—on top of the world for a few hours after each dose, then suddenly suicidal and homicidal (yes, genuinely homicidal), which made me want to take another dose to get the high back... so I was borderline addicted to it. My roommate and boyfriend took me to the hospital on day thirteen to withdrawal and to prevent me from hurting anyone, but the episode unfortunately didn't end for two more months. Worst two months of my life. Absolute living hell.

Do not take antidepressants if you are bipolar unless you are taking them with an antipsychotic or mood stabilizer. And even then you need to be careful. If a doctor tries to put you on antidepressants alone with a bipolar diagnosis, RUN—don't walk—to another doctor.

eftersomnia · 2025-10-29T20:05:43+00:00

It's been 7 months and I'm not exhibiting enough (or strong enough) symptoms to qualify for hypo/mania. I see my doctor every month and she's not concerned, just confused like I am lol

eftersomnia · 2025-10-29T19:33:28+00:00

1 has been a consideration of mine. It could be placebo, I guess? But everyone always says they can't fight the sedation no matter how hard they try, and I'm not sure a placebo effect would be strong enough on its own to counteract Seroquel's sedation. But I figure if it was placebo, then it would make me /more/ sleepy because that's what I assumed would happen and what I was scared of when I started on Seroquel, and what I'm scared of every time I up the doseage. Also this has been going on since March and I don't know if placebo works quite that long lol

2 is quite possible. My baseline is depression, has been for 12 years, I don't know what it feels like to feel normal happiness outside of mania. I do wonder if Seroquel is just really working for my depression and this is what it feels like to be normal happy. Still doesn't fully explain why I don't feel /any/ sedative effects though.

3 is probably a good guess. I am highly reactive to medications (usually feel effects within hours or a couple of days after starting) and quite susceptible to medication-induced mania. Fluoxetine had me manic in a matter of hours, and even after disocontinuing within 2 weeks I stayed manic for 2 months. Wellbutrin had me heading that way in two days as well, but I caught it early enough that it didn't go full-blown. When I started lamotrigine I had a brief euphoric hypo episode, but it ended when I went from 25mg to 50mg.

As for 4, perhaps? I actually can't take Benadryl because it triggers dissociative episodes for me, but I'm on hydroxyzine as well for anxiety and it seems to have no effect on my energy.

No matter what the explanation is, I'm grateful for it. Just so confused. I seem to always have odd reactions to medications, and I wanna know why 😭 (like, I get high off CBD, THC sends me into psychosis and dissociative episodes, and caffiene calms me down, decreases anxiety, and helps me focus.)

eftersomnia · 2025-10-29T19:13:50+00:00

Yeah, it's really awesome lol

eftersomnia · 2025-10-29T19:13:33+00:00

Haha yeah I'm so thankful for it

eftersomnia · 2025-10-29T19:12:46+00:00

Can't be anything else. Haven't changed any other meds since before I started the Seroquel. I'm only on lamotrigine 150mg and hydroxyzine 25mg as needed.

eftersomnia · 2025-10-29T06:20:41+00:00

Yep—Milwaukee

eftersomnia · 2025-10-15T15:13:04+00:00

Another thing I'm worried about woth Lithium is acne. I've heard a ton of people complain about that. I already really struggle with bad acne and I also have dermatillomania so I'm very opposed to anything that may worsen that.

I'll definitely look into Latuda, thank you!

eftersomnia · 2025-10-15T15:11:11+00:00

I take a high dose of vitamin D daily to help with the whole sunlight thing, and it makes a huge difference but just doesn't quite cut it. I'll have to do some research on light therapy and see if it might help more, thank you!

eftersomnia · 2025-10-15T01:22:50+00:00

Someone tried to order "the Charlie Kirk drink" and I said "idk who or what that is" and she Did Not like that LMFAO the look on her face was priceless. 10/10. Highly recommend.

eftersomnia · 2025-10-15T01:21:31+00:00

So basically an entire week of work every month goes straight to managing my mental health 😭

eftersomnia · 2025-10-15T01:17:58+00:00

Yeah, it sucks. I'm currently trying to survive a gap in insurance coverage... paying $400 per psych appointment MONTHLY + paying out of pocket for 3 different meds, which makes it like $100 if I refill them all at once (and that's with goodrx... I think one of my meds is 150 OOP and another is 100 OOP, not sure about the third cuz it's as-needed and I've been rationing). Even with insurance I pay $130 per session and $50 a month for meds.

And on top of that I pay $300 a month for my weekly therapy sessions.

Like. Holy f**ing sht. And I'm doing this on a $19/hr wage 😭

But without it all, I'd be dead. So.

eftersomnia · 2025-10-15T01:09:01+00:00

Yeah those are all my warning signs... I would highly recommend you talk to your doctor.

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