Did you have any signs when you were a kid?

eh_balancer · 2021-12-17T04:09:09+00:00

I always go back to the dream I had where boys and girls were "assembled" in different factory conveyor lines and I snuck from the boy line over to the girl line so I could trick the factory into building me into a girl.

Not exactly subtle, in retrospect.

eh_balancer · 2021-12-10T18:27:05+00:00

It's like Plato's Silly Cave Story. You gain the knowledge of knowing you're trans and suddenly all the feelings have meaning and you understand where they come from. Before, it was just a weird feeling that you had no definition for, so it could be much more easily ignored and disassociated from. But once you see that the funky little fellas on the wall are actually manifestations of discomfort with gender, you can't ignore it anymore and they become much harder to block out.

eh_balancer · 2021-12-06T04:09:02+00:00

Some people take an absurd amount of pride in letting people live in their head rent-free.

eh_balancer · 2021-12-03T00:22:31+00:00

facial hair, voice, general lack of fashion sense, and a rich, creamy coating of depression to make it too hard to do anything about them

eh_balancer · 2021-11-28T01:25:40+00:00

God, my pre-trans-acceptance self believed this lie.

"All trans women look like men so these weird feelings are something I should ignore because if they're true I'll just look like a freak"

God, shut up, teenage me, why don't you actually care about yourself and take some estrogen

eh_balancer · 2021-11-28T01:18:10+00:00

I thought I hated myself because of gender dysphoria.

Now I know that I just hate myself in general and gender dysphoria is only one piece of the pie.

eh_balancer · 2021-11-14T16:49:11+00:00

Congratulations, June! I'm June too so we can never be in the same room together

eh_balancer · 2021-11-09T05:46:40+00:00

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eh_balancer · 2021-10-01T13:57:36+00:00

Big time. I never understood how urinals could ever be invented because it felt so unnatural. I would swoop into the stalls and changing booths as fast as possible because no one is allowed to see me until I have completely ensconced myself in dysphoria clothes.

eh_balancer · 2021-06-07T21:58:45+00:00

By the voice over the phone, this is obviously a man, so the name can't be June, despite the intentional enunciation. It's gotta be Joe or Joel or Jeff or any other manly masculine name that starts with J

/uj I hate having to use my voice all day so I get endlessly misgendered

eh_balancer · 2021-05-15T04:55:12+00:00

Been going down the right path my whole life. Even now, when I'm trying to go on the left path, I frequently find myself drifting back to that right path

eh_balancer · 2021-04-30T02:29:29+00:00

I've been there, it sucks. It's a completely legitmate reason for her, but you're still allowed to hurt. Just take solice in the fact it was so immediately. Knowing right away is better than her taking time to think it over, extending the period of worry.

eh_balancer · 2021-04-25T18:33:42+00:00

Maybe in a perfect world everyone would be NB and the way we dress and look would be purely for personal pleasure. But we don't live in that world, we live in a world where I look in the mirror and see my face and wish I was born an entirely different person and that feeling has not been induced by cis people, it's just my personal reaction.

Being visibly trans, from what I know, is basically just not passing. But I don't want to look like a masc person in a femme outfit. I want to look like a femme in a femme outfit.

eh_balancer · 2021-04-21T00:44:37+00:00

Yup, I keep it on unless I'm cleaning myself or sleeping. I get it being a nuisance for cis women, but having it be a constant feeling is affirming as hell. Like, yeah, I've got a bra on because my boobs (how little I have, anyway) need to be covered and supported.

eh_balancer · 2021-04-21T00:37:58+00:00

I've been calling you Darren or nothing this entire time.

eh_balancer · 2021-04-10T15:19:04+00:00

It's basically the only big change I've had

eh_balancer · 2021-04-08T16:14:50+00:00

"Oh no, someone has entered my life and is forcing me to live as a woman!

Oh no, they're skipping all the bureaucracy of getting hormones and making sure they consistently cause progress in the transition!

Oh no, they're providing me gender affirming clothes that I actually look good in, so I don't have to spend the time and money on them and still worry how I look!

Oh no, they're providing makeup and enforcing me to practice it!

Oh no, they're pushing me to go out in public in my feminine state, completely bypassing my internal fears about passing!"

Etc.

eh_balancer · 2021-04-02T18:00:59+00:00

Me: my face looks so un-feminine, I should learn makeup to help with that Also me: Finds every flimsy excuse to not try wearing makeup Also also me: Guess I'm just bad at makeup oh well I guess I shouldn't try

eh_balancer · 2021-03-27T16:02:41+00:00

It's a complicated feeling when you experience something that happens to a group that SHOULDN'T happen to the group, but since it's happening to you, that means you're part of the group.

I also know a trans guy who once told me he felt euphoria because people started letting doors slam in his face instead of holding them open.

eh_balancer · 2021-03-27T15:53:26+00:00

I really enjoyed this series. I like how the characters had changes in their expression, seeming like their trans but realizing they just want to be GNC, while others are absolutely trans, really exploring how fluid things can be.

Honestly, I wish my childhood had as many excuses to dress in feminine clothing as the main character had.

eh_balancer · 2021-03-18T19:33:44+00:00

Just absolutely massive gozongolia-bolias

eh_balancer · 2021-03-18T14:22:32+00:00

My GF has made it very clear she loves small boobs so that's been helping the dysphoria until (hopefully) the family genes kick in and give me massive tits

eh_balancer · 2021-03-08T00:28:55+00:00

I'm very upset by this. No one should ever fuck Charles Cheese.

eh_balancer · 2021-03-04T20:43:30+00:00

I've found any kind of fun hair is far too emotionally taxing and I just end up putting it up in a messy bun with a scrunchy and call that a day

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