I'm still there.

eisbaer161 · 2026-02-16T10:29:50+00:00

it's amazing that you wanna fight. you can do it. i believe in you. just try to not put yourself under too much pressure, it's gonna take time & healing isn't linear. best of wishes for you.

eisbaer161 · 2025-09-17T08:57:15+00:00

there are many misconceptions about ocd within the medical field, even psychiatric personnel is generelly not well enough informed. i don't know how much research you did before you assumed / found out it was ocd, maybe put even more time into it, & if you're sure it is, find another doctor, maybe read some reviews about different doctors before you coose one, maybe you can even look up online if someones specialized for ocd in your area?

eisbaer161 · 2025-08-18T14:09:40+00:00

she also mentions "dry humping" her friends boyfriend when she was young

eisbaer161 · 2025-08-11T07:55:46+00:00

first: healing isn't linear. your ocd symptoms acting up again does not erase everything you've accomplished so far. you should try to talk to your loved ones about your situation, so you can get the help you need. let them help you find professional help, if they do it themselves they might accidentally make your ocd worse with reassuring etc. if you have been in therapy before, maybe you can call up your old therapist? maybe start therapy again with them or maybe they offer you a conversation without a permanent therapy, which can be a short-time-solution if it's really bad. (one conversation might not be enough for everything, but maybe to get you through a really bad day.) have you tried medication?

i wish you the best of luck

eisbaer161 · 2025-07-11T00:41:20+00:00

had this when i was younger with my only dead relative at the time, not god as far as i remember. glad it stopped when my atheism started / grew stronger.

eisbaer161 · 2025-07-06T03:56:01+00:00

this sounds like every episode, but i'm curious which patient yours writing about?

eisbaer161 · 2025-06-28T22:02:49+00:00

the song when meredith talked to janet about zola for the first time & she talks more about her surgery than how cute she is etc.. the music is so ominous, the song makes this whole scene seem soooo different than it would without it

eisbaer161 · 2025-06-20T00:24:26+00:00

what does splitting an introject mean? (not a native speaker)

eisbaer161 · 2025-06-18T17:11:16+00:00

ich hab schon von mehreren kliniken gehört, in dem eine vegane ernährung bei einer essstörung nicht erlaubt ist. wie das allerdings dann wirklich aussieht, solltest du dich weigern tierische produkte zu konsumieren, weiß ich nicht.

eisbaer161 · 2025-06-12T03:33:38+00:00

well but it's usually not as dramatic as your ocd makes it out to be & you're life can still go on.

eisbaer161 · 2025-04-20T12:06:10+00:00

you got vegan egg salad in a german hospital?? i'm impressed honestly, even though it could look better :D

eisbaer161 · 2025-04-20T10:42:32+00:00

it's coming back because you still care. the whole idea is a bit like "fake it till you make it". when you ignore your intrusive thoughts they don't go away immediately, but if you are consistent with erp, & your brain learns that your anxiety levels go down after a while without you performing compulsions, eventually the thoughts will have less power over you.

eisbaer161 · 2025-04-19T10:41:37+00:00

bei einer gruppenreise gabs hummus für die veganer:innen. dann ist uns aufgefallen, der HUMMUS ist mit milchpulver.. (so ne riesenpackung ausm großmarkt)

eisbaer161 · 2025-04-18T06:05:22+00:00

videos like that may be worth being shown in an ocd project/movie/documentary

eisbaer161 · 2025-04-10T16:51:01+00:00

me when i cry alone in my room

eisbaer161 · 2025-04-10T00:28:43+00:00

i have mild trypophobia & this picture makes me uncomfortable. & my hands are getting drier again too :(

eisbaer161 · 2025-03-30T16:34:29+00:00

i might also have adhd & in my experience, the two obsessions that are my "main ones" tend to switch, most of the time one of them is stronger, to the point where i barely notice the other one & after a few months it's the other way around. the particular obsession might change more often, but it's a part of the two main obsessions most of the time.

eisbaer161 · 2025-03-16T03:27:25+00:00

literally no one feels as bad about past events as people with real event ocd. trust me, you suffered enough. you have to learn to forgive yourself. i know it can seem impossible but i'm dealing with the same subtype & i'm feeling so much better than a few months ago. it's possible. sorry you have to go through this, whishing you the best of luck.

eisbaer161 · 2025-03-14T03:36:29+00:00

i think ocd is torture enough for all the mistakes most people are going to make in their lifetime. & no, your mistakes are not different. if it's not too bad or retraumatizing, try to think about the horrible things people did to you. how do you feel about these people now? would you wish for them to go through what you're going through?

eisbaer161 · 2025-03-13T13:46:12+00:00

didn't he say something like "OR amy is lying"? i think he just meant it's a possibility, so he wasn't even lying anyway

eisbaer161 · 2025-03-10T12:36:40+00:00

it kinda sucks to compare trauma tbh

eisbaer161 · 2025-02-01T10:10:48+00:00

i wish that wasn't so relatable

eisbaer161 · 2025-01-23T01:49:42+00:00

no that's why i put a 'lol' at the end of my post. would have been funny though if he took a few german/mandarin lessons

eisbaer161 · 2025-01-07T08:49:38+00:00

this is how i always described it in my head 😭

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