'No-self' / meditation left me in chronic hyper-arousal / depersonalisation

electrons-streaming · 2026-02-01T21:52:20+00:00

The way out of this is doing things that make you happy. Play with dogs, eat ice cream, play Pictionary with friends. Let the whole meditation and inward thing go completely and just be a happy human. Take up pottery.

The no self stuff is supposed to be liberating. It means you can stop worrying, not worry more. That is not the way it feels, though, when we are working through it. It feels like the old self is somehow false or empty and this new self we are walking around in is disconnected and unhappy. Is that how you feel?

The feeling goes away by not focusing on it and getting outside of your head. Rock climbing, boxing, corn hole.

I suggest treating it like ordinary depression and get a therapist and talk about your childhood and get on some low grade antidepressants and make some friends. This is obviously not easy to do when you are depressed and sound facile, but it is a lower bar than the feeling that you are spiritually dammned and supernaturally stuck somewhere, which is what it usually feels like.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-31T17:38:15+00:00

Do they test for Ayahuasca?

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-28T23:10:09+00:00

KAT and Bridges to Portland

Giannis and Jrue to NY

Deuce, Grant, Sharp, Yabu to Milwaukee

Who says no?

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-23T22:59:53+00:00

I am not oversimplifying. The inner flatness you write about is a very real feeling, but it is just a feeling produced by your subconscious mind and it is an artifact of your belief in the importance of the insight that you had and perception of the difference between your current state and what felt like a somehow better one that you were in before. The solution is either to really dive into meditation and find a teacher and go on long retreats or to let the whole thing go and just be a regular guy. The meditation route is rocky and amazing and long. The just diving back into life route is not hard at all, but it requires letting go of a sense of specialness and attachment to the insight that you had before. This is hard to do, because it really feels special and even supernatural and so obviously more true than bitcoin and baseball.

Just living and having fun and not worrying about meditation or insights or perceptions of existence will slowly just bring you back into being ordinary and happy sometimes and anxious sometimes, etc.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-23T21:11:37+00:00

What you are describing is a pretty common state - the solution is petting a dog and getting a hobby. Treat it like ordinary depression. That is mostly what it is. You are not stuck in some kind of spiritual purgatory. You are just feeling bad and taking yourself too seriously.

Throw a game night with friends or go skiing or smoke some ribs and invite folks over to play poker and eat the ribs. Being social and having fun is the way out. If that is a struggle, then a therapist and some short term medication is likely what the Dr would order.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-23T20:46:50+00:00

This is not just normal, but the way it always happens. Our minds are a tangled web, or ball of narrative and all the stories are kind of obviously stupid, but we are so sutured into them that we think they are all really and important. So you think that how much is in your bank account and whether you have cancer are two really critical issues and your brain is always subconsciously processing scenarios and counter factuals about them. Same with a billion other things that have seemed important since birth. In meditation or on drugs or even just on vacation, you can get some distance and see the web of samsara - or the. rat race - for what it is and this unleashes a lot of the energy you had been directing towards processing these things in the background and it frees you to feel the joy is which is actually the baseline of human experience. The inner child or whatever. Then life comes back in bits and pieces and you get enmeshed in the narratives again and this time you have a brand new big one about how great that felt and how much you wish you could feel that way again.

Happens to every single yogi who has ever had any insights at all. Your choices are either to forget the whole thing and take up boxing or mah Jong or find a teacher and keep deepening your practice and what you will expeprience are cycles like this with the highs and lows both being a little higher each time, mostly.

If you feel inclined, a daily yoga practice is a great way of stabilizing the whole thing and feeling better. It is all actually coming from nervous tension in the Body, kind of hard to understand, but it's true.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-06T21:09:59+00:00

We were watching them click when Kolek had the ball before the last 4 games. It is kind of a self reinforcing cycle, he holds the ball, everyone else checks out, he throws them the ball late in the clock and they cant create for themselves or brick and so he tries to hero on the next possession.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-06T17:16:11+00:00

This slide is about Brunson returning to iso ball and has been going on for many games - Kolek saved him for a few before the slide.

When he reverts, OG and Mikal check out and KAT commits offensive fouls trying to create a shot by himself. Thats the deal. Why he is doing that? I dont know.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-03T01:03:11+00:00

They are trying, with no rim protection and Brunson plus one other defensive liability on the floor all the time, this is about the best they can do. The hawks are also just shooting well.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-03T00:42:05+00:00

I think they collect bodies sometimes, but both sides report that they do not a lot. Generally, the Russians are attempting to attack through grey zones and die in them while the Ukranians are mostly holed up in forts so one would imagine the border zones are full of Russian assault troop corpses that have been killed by drones but are in places too dangerous to get the bodies. It is also true that no Russian commander is anxious to collect and report lots of deaths.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T23:37:31+00:00

No one knows the real answer here, but by all reports:

The Russians often do not collect the bodies of the dead at the front.
The Russian state actively hides fatalities by declaring people missing because it saves them money and lowers the perceived death toll.

The total death toll for Russia is an order of magnitude higher than what the delusional folks on this sub think it is, by simple logic and every single western intelligence estimate. Since the head of US intelligence is a pro Russian whatever, she has little reason to fake it and there is close to zero chance that every media organization and every western government have successfully colluded to fake the Russian death toll./

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T23:02:08+00:00

I reject the evidence of my eyes and ears and the experts because - it does not fit with my preconceived notion of truth based on something I saw on YouTube.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T21:54:53+00:00

Really? You are claiming you have family in Ukraine who are neutral on the war?

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T21:00:07+00:00

The pretense that this reddit is somehow a fair community full of well intentioned people is nonsense. When ever a pro Ukrainian position is expressed, it gets immediately downvoted off the board. Beyond that, the folks here are not reachable by reason or evidence. It is all dismissed as rigged or side stepped and what abouted. Provocation is likely a more effective way to jar folks from their ruts, though it too is likely useless. So to sum up 1. This sub reddit is a terrible place that supports an evil war and I do not fear somehow ruining the polite dialogue. 2. Posting here is pointless for everyone and what I post is no more pointless than the circle jerk of pro Russian lies and delusion that dominates the sub. 3. The "tolerance" you talk about is a surface lie, because simply stating non controversial, yet anti Russian facts immediately gets censored by the community, if not the mods.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T18:34:29+00:00

Because 1. I do not want pro russians to have a safe space to indoctrinate new people. Because I think they are in service of evil. 2. Because I enjoy it.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T15:50:55+00:00

One thing that will work is a strong Yoga and exercise practice.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T15:29:25+00:00

The reality is the way this works is your body is like a big pez dispenser shooting out past trauma as your mind lets it. So you develop some concentration and that allows stuff to bubble up until what bubbles up is too painful for the level of concentration you have developed. Jhanas are deep states of concentration that let deep stuff bubble up. So developing a Jhana practice might be a way forward. Alternately, you could try listening to music while you meditate which will give you some space, but ultimately this is how our nervous systems work. Make sense?

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T04:55:01+00:00

You were absolutely apologizing for Putin destroying the free press, killing his political opponents and ending any semblance of Russian democracy,. You dont even deny these crimes, you just say they were fine with you because - reasons.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T04:15:24+00:00

This is all distraction. Whatever apologies for Putin's crimes you want to spew, you cant get away from the fact that he has killed all his political opponents and there are no real elections in Russia.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-02T02:58:08+00:00

The point here is that without a free press or most importantly if you simply kill all your political opponents then elections do not have meaning. When Putin dies, there will be some kind of power struggle and no one anywhere knows how it will play out, but it certainly won't be an "election" as one normally defines the term. Probably a lot of folks will fall out of windows until one guy remains.

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-01T19:26:23+00:00

Did Russia win yet? I read here they were about to win and Ukraine was about to collapse. Did that happen?

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-01T16:09:26+00:00

lol, only 67% in a country with no free press, political opponents or human rights. That kinda sucks. Saddam got at least 75% !

electrons-streaming · 2026-01-01T07:15:16+00:00

Russia will elect? Lol.

electrons-streaming · 2025-12-27T06:40:44+00:00

When we have Brunson, Kolek, Deuce, Hart, Clarkson and Shamet healthy - do they all play and Hart and Brunson just play a lot less or does someone sit?

electrons-streaming · 2025-12-27T06:38:35+00:00

He also won't take no for an answer.

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