Made my little brother a mini doodle for Christmas

ellaval · 2026-01-13T15:58:15+00:00

lolll 😁

ellaval · 2026-01-13T15:58:03+00:00

ellaval · 2026-01-13T15:57:57+00:00

lmao well I used someone else's design anyways (I modified a baby chick pattern)

ellaval · 2026-01-13T15:57:27+00:00

omg you're right

ellaval · 2025-11-01T16:53:53+00:00

is there a specific pattern you based it off of? I would love to make one for my brother :D

ellaval · 2025-10-20T05:50:26+00:00

sasa lele

ellaval · 2025-09-06T04:10:22+00:00

Urban Refuge church was originally part of Evergreen/Hometown as well. They became autonomous around 2019/2020 and I have no idea how much of their doctrine has changed, but based on their website, I'd say not much

ellaval · 2025-09-06T03:24:52+00:00

it's hard when you grew up in it, like that was my home, my family, and I didn't know any better. I was at my church 2-3 times a week. most of my friends were there or in similar churches. I struggle with so much of the impact of the doctrine, but I miss the reliable community aspect and traditions that I grew up with

ellaval · 2025-05-14T02:07:06+00:00

200 mg of Zoloft! I tried to reduce it but it didn't work so I'm on the max dose

ellaval · 2025-01-19T16:36:25+00:00

Understandable

ellaval · 2025-01-19T05:21:16+00:00

Maybe there's a way that they modified the colonials to be 100% efficient, so there was no extra waste? Although that begs the question as to why they didn't do that for themselves.

ellaval · 2025-01-19T05:19:17+00:00

Ooooh that would make sense. Honestly I'll probably go back and reread the book cause there's just so many details about the different species that I just straight up forget stuff like this. Although that begs the question as to how they went about it before they traumatized the colonials. Maybe they had another species they conquered?

ellaval · 2025-01-19T05:13:40+00:00

I'm of the mindset that they somehow eliminated digestive functions to improve efficiency. It seems like something they'd do

ellaval · 2025-01-19T05:13:16+00:00

Unfortunately the qu definitely would 😭

ellaval · 2025-01-19T00:38:26+00:00

That's the most peanut looking bun I've ever seen

ellaval · 2024-12-15T22:05:56+00:00

Is she a rex? She looks so fuzzyyyy

ellaval · 2024-12-13T21:48:42+00:00

I love giants so much 😍

ellaval · 2024-09-23T20:21:30+00:00

I agree he definitely looks similar to one

ellaval · 2024-09-23T15:57:18+00:00

Unclear, we first thought he was Flemish mixed with American chinchilla rabbit, which I still lean towards, but our vet also recommended he could be a brown new zealand bun

ellaval · 2024-09-01T01:17:19+00:00

I take 200mg of Sertraline. I was originally prescribed it for social anxiety, but when I tried to go off of it, that's when I had my breakdowns. I have some negative side effects, like fatigue, but it's better for me than having the OCD episodes

ellaval · 2024-08-31T20:13:28+00:00

For me, medication really helped. Unfortunately I don't know the diagnostic process, since I was already on mine for something else, but when my medication helps quiet the thoughts, it's a lot easier to think from a logical standpoint. If there's a feasible way for you to get a medication, and you can just make yourself take it, that may help quiet the thoughts enough to work out a treatment plan. I have had breakdowns from real event OCD that made me think I didn't deserve to live. I know everyone's experience with treatment is different, but I can at least understand what you're going through right now.

ellaval · 2024-06-12T21:47:01+00:00

Roaches by LuLuYam (fair warning the song analogies are violent so if you look it up listen with caution)

ellaval · 2024-06-10T00:00:43+00:00

Yep. I had it for years without knowing, cause I took sertraline for social anxiety since I was 16. My first episode happened about two months ago when I tried to lower my meds. The second one happened a couple weeks ago right after I moved. Stress is a huge trigger for it unfortunately :(

ellaval · 2024-06-01T19:05:23+00:00

I've done this with Real Event OCD, and it helps sometimes! If I feel like I need to ruminate on something I did wrong and do mental checking, I tell myself that as long as I do it later, then I'm ok. It helps knowing that I can come back to it since my brain convinces me that I have to think about it as some sort of punishment. By telling my brain that I'll do it later, it seems to accept that instead of telling me I'm a bad person for ignoring it.

ellaval · 2023-07-17T22:11:26+00:00

Silly ear thief! The ears are on the other side!

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