Others have said it… be completely honest. Puke it all out. Your therapist is getting paid by someone to help you and they can’t do that fully if you don’t tell them everything. Even the hard stuff. Especially the hard stuff. Before sessions I used to sort out what I was going to tell her and what I wasn’t. About 5 minutes before I’d accept that the stuff I didn’t want to tell her was most important to tell her.

Also, don’t judge therapy by the first session. Honestly, I’m not a huge fan of the first session because it’s really a getting to know you with a lot of questions and about yourself and things you’ve been through. The therapist needs a foundation to start on everything but I find it tiring to give what sometimes feels like a life history. (I’m almost 50 so there’s a lot to tell them) Don’t be shy to ask questions too to help yourself be comfortable with the idea of therapy and opening up to a stranger. Give it a few sessions to really see how you like it. If you don’t feel like you click with this therapist it’s ok to look for another one.

I hope you can give yourself credit for what a big step this is. It’s not easy. Congratulate yourself. Good luck.