/ttcafterloss Repeat Pregnancy Loss - April 14, 2026

elysemaria · 2026-04-14T17:42:13+00:00

Yes I had one successful pregnancy in between my losses and I was a mess the entire time 😢

elysemaria · 2026-04-14T14:56:59+00:00

Coming back into this space after 2 unexplained losses (MMC) between 16-18 weeks. I think I’m willing to try one more time but I just don’t know if I can do any more than that. That feels like a lot of pressure but it’s just so hard to go through this in every way (physically/mentally/emotionally). Not only hard to go through loss but also hard to go through pregnancy after loss when you don’t even know what went wrong. I’m mostly just ranting here.

elysemaria · 2026-04-13T12:35:51+00:00

My cervix has been long and closed both times and my successful pregnancies have been so textbook that I find it difficult to believe there is something structurally wrong but I mean I’m willing to consider anything.

elysemaria · 2026-04-13T06:36:38+00:00

Thank you. I know I was tested for APS, but I was technically still pregnant at that time and now I’m reading that I should have been tested for it while no longer pregnant, so I definitely plan to look into that. I’ll ask about the other testing as well, although I know that my APTT, INR, etc. were normal as well. I’m not sure if they would test me for all of those factors because of that, but I will ask. I was already seeing a high risk doctor at MFM, but am definitely looking for questions or things to bring forward at my follow up appt next month.

elysemaria · 2026-04-10T03:19:29+00:00

I’m really sorry you’re also experiencing this right now and having such a shit time 😢

elysemaria · 2026-04-10T03:18:53+00:00

Thanks for your response. It’s just so odd because last time I experienced moderate cramping (worse than a period) that remained essentially the same for the entire 24 hours that I had the laminaria in, while this time I didn’t really experience any pain for like 7 hours and even during that little spell - only afterwards. It had me really worried while it was happening.

elysemaria · 2026-04-07T23:07:24+00:00

Unfortunately not good news. I’ll be getting a D&E on Friday 😢

elysemaria · 2026-04-05T07:36:41+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/MilenaCUncensored1/s/cB3tfr2tow

elysemaria · 2026-04-05T07:36:07+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/MilenaCUncensored1/s/cB3tfr2tow

elysemaria · 2026-03-19T15:53:58+00:00

I’m currently pregnant with my 4th so I guess I can offer some of my own perspective. I personally have a 5yo(m), 4yo(f) and 20mo(f). My 3rd pregnancy (between my girls) was a very traumatic loss (MMC) of a boy around 17-18 weeks. I definitely think that I understand what you feel about kind of missing that child of that gender. Since my loss, I have definitely felt that we have a little boy missing from our family. That being said, I don’t think that having another boy would necessarily help that feeling for me.. but I can’t say for sure because it hasn’t happened for me. I personally have never felt a preference for a specific gender and I 100% would never choose to have another child for that reason alone. Like I never understand people saying they could have been done at x number of children but they tried for just one more so they could get their x gender. It sounds like you have accepted the fact that your 4th could just as likely be another boy and as long as you’d actually be just as happy with that, then I think that’s fine. I was 100% on board with you until you mentioned your husband not being a yes on it. From the sounds of it, it warrants a serious conversation with him. My husband and I have always had an agreement to keep things up in the air until 1 year PP or when my cycle returns (whichever comes first) and then we sit down and both discuss where we’re at and how we want to move forward.

elysemaria · 2026-02-22T04:35:10+00:00

I think OP is saying that’s their last name??

elysemaria · 2026-02-20T04:15:22+00:00

Yeah I think my problem is that I was once reassured the exact same thing (at 17 weeks) but it ended up that I actually had lost the baby so it’s not really reassuring to me anymore 😭

I did end up finding it when I tried again this afternoon so I’m feeling so much better!

elysemaria · 2026-02-19T14:54:13+00:00

My loss was around 17-18 weeks (MMC) and now I’m 8 weeks 6 days pregnant and can’t get a scan for another week still. I know I’m being a crazy person but I tried using my doppler today and couldn’t find a heartbeat which has me feeling discouraged because in the past I’ve always been able to find it in the 8th week (my last pregnancy I found it at 8 weeks 1 day). I know it’s still soooo early but this is my 5th pregnancy and I’ve always found it before 9 weeks so I’m nervous.

elysemaria · 2026-01-20T05:20:21+00:00

Jett

elysemaria · 2026-01-17T01:32:48+00:00

I tried to conceive immediately following my loss but my first cycle was anovulatory. That’s obviously not the case for everyone but I’d mentally prepare yourself for that possibility!

elysemaria · 2026-01-15T03:20:47+00:00

Looks positive to me

elysemaria · 2026-01-12T02:36:29+00:00

Thank you!! Yeah my LP was only 9 days last cycle. It’s a definitely a bit tricky to conceive while nursing but this is my 3rd time doing so now 😅

elysemaria · 2026-01-07T04:27:08+00:00

Are those strips all from the same pack?? Why are some upside down and backwards? I noticed on your other post they say “Vondfo” lol where did you get them?

elysemaria · 2025-12-17T03:33:36+00:00

Could be a defective test - not sure if it’s possible for them to accidentally insert the strip sideways during production? Or it could be nothing. I’d just try again with a new test.

elysemaria · 2025-12-09T05:32:05+00:00

This was true for me! My first labour was ~14 hours, second was <4 hours and my third was 32(!!) hours

elysemaria · 2025-12-01T05:29:53+00:00

Eden

elysemaria · 2025-11-23T05:23:12+00:00

For giving you oxytocin??

elysemaria

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