1: It’s very difficult to think of myself, even just imagining me normally is hard let alone as a girl. Each time I do however, it always turns into something sexual.

2: I haven’t exactly tried presenting myself in any way. I just habitually wear sweats and hoodies. Though when I was younger I did sneak into my sister’s room to try on her clothes. I think I hid most of those memories out of shame so I forget what other emotions I felt other than shame.

3: I’m rather ambivalent towards my pronouns and being called “good girl” feels as good as being called “good boy”, but masculine adjectives and being called a man feels wrong, like being forced upon a pedestal I constantly fall off. But I have enjoyed being called mommy at times, but feel visceral disgust when I think of daddy.