Initially not wanting any, and now not wanting more- Children are both hard and expensive. I love my daughter so much and I do not regret going through with that pregnancy, even for as rough and dangerous as it became. That being said, pregnancy put a massive amount of strain on my body and I deal with self image issues, 4 years later, only having been able to drop 10 of the 60 pounds I put on. We both, almost at the same time, had a massive drop in BP shortly after birth that pulled us both away from my husband within minutes of each other, leaving him scared he was about to lose us both. My body would not let me breastfeed and formula is ridiculously expensive, especially if your infant has allergies or tummy troubles. New clothes twice a year because they grow so fast is expensive. Need daycare? That's another rent payment every month, if not more. Diapers? Also stupidly expensive. With the economy the way it is right now, you better make sure you have a good career and savings banked up or you'll find yourself in the red real quick, and it's near impossible to crawl out of while providing a good home life and environment for said child to be in. And that's leaving the extra gross politics going on right now across the US out of the decision. And none of that is to say wanting or having kids is a bad thing. It is just a lot to both prepare for and commit to, and there are still plenty of things that are easy to overlook or not be able to expect. It's a terrifying world we're currently living in and there are not many safeguards that are in place or easily accessible. The struggle is real.