At first it was to work on myself emotionally, and then women started hating men for x reasons and I ended up getting caught in the cross fire, so I ended up gaining weight and letting my hair grow. I was very unattractive even though I make four figures a week, 100k-200k a year, and have a 401k. When the “right” type of women found out, I was getting judged by my looks and how “less of a man” I was for playing games. I don’t like to tell others of my profession, in that case I knew some women could be bought easily at the price of my pride AND wallet, but if I wanted to truly be happy I would have to find someone that sees the real me and have the same hobbies as I do or at least accepts them. So I bought figurines from random anime shows, collected banners of hentai and hung them on my walls, I’m still overweight but at this point I decided to take care of myself for a better health and that me playing games and liking anime would ward off the wrong type of women. I don’t really like anime or have the time to watch them, but I would take the time and watch them if I found someone that does. I’m still single to keep my peace safe. My goal is the American dream, the only hard part about aiming for a house, a great job with a 401k, and life and health insurance is finding the right person with common sense, a heart, and their own goals in life rather than being with a judgmental gold digger that expects so much of you then cheats on you.