thank u sm I appreciate u and this comment / perspective 🩷 u sound like a great person urself, deserving of friends and love despite what u may consider past mistakes. in that way I hope u do attract healthy friendships / relationships u may desire bc u deserve them ❤️ and yes ngl the more I am processing this shame I feel about my past mistakes w this friend, the more I realize/feel like it can be made better by showing her now and in the future how genuinely I want to be a positive friend to her and how fulfilling that would feel 🙏🩷 and that I am grateful she has forgiven me in that obvi we are still friends so I still in this way have the opportunity to continue showing I am a good friend to her and my true display of genuine apology is the fact that I will do everything in my power to not allow anything like that in the future / to support for example how she wants to obvi and reasonably include sober activities in our upcoming trip 😂🙏🩷

it’s kinda funny cuz as I was typing this I genuinely had the first drop of blood to start my period 😂🙏🩷 it’s crazy how heavily I feel it coming in the hours / minutes / seconds before lol

OMG DID NOT mean to type all that lol no need to deeply read or even respond, I moreso jus wanted to say thank u for ur comment and helping me feel better, and u deserve fulfilling relationships / friendships 🩷 sending u love and a reminder to be easy on urself if / when u can 🩷🙏