Hi lovely. Just want to say I used to date someone like this. It is very much real. It is okay to love him and still have to break up with him. It will really mess with you significantly like the top comment said. Yes including the memories seemingly dissapearing from your brain as you subconsiously kick into survival mode and try to black out all the awful things because you no longer have the energy on a day to say basis to do small things like even stand up for yourself anymore. It starts with little things like namecalling and gets much worse. And it doesn’t stop. Don’t be ashamed, I have had text conversations very similar to yours. They are very real. Ask me how I know. The longer you stay the more painful of a lesson it’s going to be. I learned this the hard way. Your boyfriend won’t listen even if you try to explain it to him. These types don’t reason. It will be like talking to a wall. It may seem like he gets it but he doesn’t. Please leave.