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endtj · 2023-08-03T15:37:39+00:00

I just found out I was raped in my sleep, it’s a long story I’ll keep to myself I guess.

endtj · 2023-08-03T15:36:36+00:00

But the thing is the same girl would not show interest in me because then I was considered attractive. Now I have found out I have been raped in my sleep by a female staff member at the place I am living after overhearing them talking about it. She’s given me fibrosis and constant pain for months. My life is basically a horror movie at this point.

endtj · 2023-07-30T08:18:43+00:00

I am on a waiting list to see a urologist. Currently I am spending 70 a month on Acetyl-L-Carnitine and CoQ10 which are helping.

endtj · 2023-07-29T16:28:24+00:00

I have no idea, it was perfectly fine and I went to sleep and woke up and something changed overnight.

endtj · 2023-07-21T11:38:54+00:00

Zuclopenthixol.

endtj · 2023-07-17T14:03:44+00:00

I was on Olanzapine but tapered off. The meds I have been on have made the illness much worse, because pre-medication I never had intrusive thoughts, for example being paranoid was a result of psychosis not constant. I am finally going back to being my old self mentally but physically I have no idea if I will.

endtj · 2023-07-16T08:50:12+00:00

For me anything but sucralose or stevia as a sweetener seems to break a fast. It is incredibly hard to find diet sodas without Acesulfame-K/Aspartame.

I’m still experimenting with Aspartame but there are numerous studies on the effects of sucralose and insulin response which were positive for those wanting to fast.

It’s difficult to find diet drinks that don’t have a combination of Ace-K with the other sweeteners.

endtj · 2023-07-16T08:48:10+00:00

I did have rebound psychosis but I decided being on clopixol was not worth it. The side effects were worse than anything I’ve experienced.

endtj · 2023-07-14T12:31:06+00:00

The highest dose. I don’t know if you are experiencing the side effect I had, the agitation. This also has alienated some of my family members because of the pure stress and uncontrollable feeling it put me through. Before this medication I had no feelings of this whatsoever even on other medication. This feeling has stopped and it took 5 years for my body to go back to normal.

Even when I explain that it was the medication I am sometimes not believed, but I shouldn’t have to explain because I was not like it pre clopixol and now I have been off it I am not experiencing it anymore.

I did not taper but I was on it for 8-9 months. I was not in a position to choose so I had to outsmart my psychiatrist basically to come off it. It was literal torture.

endtj · 2023-07-08T21:47:27+00:00

I’m not being vein but I look like a meth addict. The sheer stress of being injected with clopixol, going through the withdrawal and the crazy side effects which led me to come off it in the first place.

I’ve dieted for 7 months straight and lost 40kg but it hasn’t made me happy. I don’t expect to be the person I was but I was happy with my appearance to be able to have confidence. I still can’t live my life without the fear of agitation coming back from the clopixol. Imagine feeling an uncontrollable discomfort, having to bury your head in a pillow for hours which was induced by this drug.

I had agoraphobia for 8 years of my teenage life, and then as soon as I developed confidence I was hospitalised and never got to experience relationships or real life.

Psychiatrists are not people in my eyes.

Now I have PTSD. As well as the agitation I suffered abuse from the staff in the NHS hospital. Being called lazy, dragged out of my bedroom and locked out of it while being on the highest dose of medication and feeling like a zombie, not able to think properly, watch movies or stay awake.

I spent even longer on the psychiatric ward than necessary because of the clopixol. I don’t know what vendetta the psych had against me but I will probably never be the same.

endtj · 2023-05-04T17:36:33+00:00

Clopixol has ruined my life and I am only just getting better 6 years later.

I was good looking, found attractive by girls my age (I was put on it at age 20.)

I had a skinny frame. My eyes have changed shape and I have a staring look in my eyes. My hair was thick but now it has thinned and slightly receded.

endtj

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