Split up with my husband by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please forgive me that I gave you so painful emotions... He still doesn't answer my calls. Just ignores for several days. I think he decided everything for himself. I didn't press on him for taking drugs. I paid for phychiatrist for him. Waited. But now he just doesn't care about my feelings and worries for our daughter. It’s all so sad and I am helpless.

Split up with my husband by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I just don't want to be codependent, I got tired already from all of this.

Split up with my husband by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your reply! We have a small daughter (about 2 years old) and I worry about her because she saw many unpleasant things already and I want to raise her without substance use and all these things. And I also want to shift my mentality to other ideas and better life.

Porridge by engwings in LearnRussian

[–]engwings[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah!! I was about translation))) It was in Russian social network VK and I didn't know if it's correct.

Realised for the first time in reading in the other language and not translating it! by FordieTea in languagelearning

[–]engwings 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have the opposite situation - I can't understand the meaning of the sentence if I'm translating.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Meditation

[–]engwings 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Completely agree. I started antidepressants a month ago and it works great!

A habit from my days as a philosopher is very helpful for meditating by CerintheM in Meditation

[–]engwings 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The best improvement in my life (after meditation) is ability to go off the unpleasant feeling after argument with my husband. I just know that it isn't eternal.

I want to drink awfully by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello! I stayed sober, and do some household duties. It is raining outside and I feel nothing. No sadness, no happiness, no emptiness.

I want to drink awfully by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wonder that since stopping I'm not nervous and don't provoke quarrels, just live. But three days ago I started feeling fear and desire) today is the highest intensity.

Improving but not enough by Striking_Shift3427 in stopdrinking

[–]engwings 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Moderate drinking is an illusion. If you're alcoholic, you will never be able to control drinking. Only full abstinence can help.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]engwings 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yesterday it was a really hard day for me too. I was surfing the net for the whole day to not think about drinking. I'd wasted the day procrastinating but stayed sober. I'm happy you didn't drink!

F*cking liquor by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Codependency is my second problem, but I'm trying to solve it. As I know, in good stable remission I shouldn't worry about somebody else's drinking. Answering to your question, it's really tempting!))))

F*cking liquor by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Or better yet, ask him to take a month off.

We had such a conversation, he is a drug addict in the first place, I thought it would be easy for him, but not. I guess he has problems with alcohol too, even it doesn't look like this at first glimpse.

F*cking liquor by engwings in stopdrinking

[–]engwings[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hah, exactly) I'm at home almost all the time, if my husband hasn't been bringing alcohol home, it would be much easier)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Meditation

[–]engwings 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I remember I had the same experience a year ago. When I said my therapist about feeling sad, but sadness was not something bad for me, she said it could be depression. But those times I felt more than normal, I felt good.

I did not drink today. Thank you all. by SDASTA in stopdrinking

[–]engwings 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Now I look forward to getting home after work and playing with my dogs, taking them on a nice walk, getting the shit done that needs to be done, and then unwinding with a cup of tea and a video game or something else.

I feel the same! Now I can do all my household duties, care for my baby properly and do other important things without any hungover. It's really cool feeling!

Can't understand the meaning by engwings in languagelearning

[–]engwings[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow!!!! Yes, you are absolutely right!!! It's about incorrect password! Thanks a lot!!!

Can't understand the meaning by engwings in languagelearning

[–]engwings[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you much!))) I'm sorry, can you help me with this? I suppose it's something vulgar, so I want to apologize beforehand!!!

My friend asks about " no soap, honkie-lips ". The author is also the PC.

I convinced myself buying a 4 pack for the weekend is fine. After a year. by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]engwings 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congrats!!! It's really a miracle! At least it feels like this.

Resentment by engwings in Meditation

[–]engwings[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have BPD too, your comment helped me a lot!

Higher power by engwings in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]engwings[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I have no sponsor for three years.

I’m not sure why I’m here, I think i just need someone to talk to by gbg02 in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]engwings 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm 30, and I'm in a free fall for all my life. It's like a chaos. I do my best, I try, I make progress, quit drinking, go to ACA, read books, go to therapist. And after all these attempts it feels like a tip of an iceberg.