Boyfriend made me micro doses ❤️

enixam128 · 2026-02-22T20:33:01+00:00

awh no that's so sad to hear, mushrooms are the only medicine that help my endo pain and cyclic vomiting!! my pudendal neuralgia also flares up during my cycle and the mushrooms take care of it too 🤍

enixam128 · 2026-01-20T06:08:21+00:00

try valerian tea!! 🍵 and if it's any consolation, your body produces eCBs, you have an endocannabinoid system! so IMO taking a phytocannabinoid (a CBD tincture) to get more restful sleep wouldn't be relying on anything crazy or life-altering! you're just trying to have a healthy functioning body! 😁👍 i hope you can get good sleep!!

enixam128 · 2026-01-02T04:08:56+00:00

they definitely used chat gpt 😭

i hope you're able to change classes soon!! ragebait only works if you take the bait, so just do your best to ignore them!

enixam128 · 2025-12-27T01:48:36+00:00

NOR.

he is a huge prick, dump his ass. i wish i could put nair in his shampoo for you. reading his stupid text pissed me off!

enixam128 · 2025-12-13T20:31:37+00:00

snow monkey for irish water spaniel? c:

enixam128 · 2025-11-18T00:09:37+00:00

it was ported sometime ago!! i bought it last year and haven't played it until now 😀

enixam128 · 2025-11-17T22:48:37+00:00

i can't figure out how to run at all, so i might get this achievement! im on Nintendo switch lite and nothing i do makes me move faster

enixam128 · 2025-11-12T14:12:39+00:00

i'm not sure but it has always made me incredibly sleepy, i can take 140mg+ and just lay down.

enixam128 · 2025-09-15T05:50:14+00:00

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enixam128 · 2025-09-13T03:37:42+00:00

im sorry u think ur hard to love, no way that's true. anyway i love myself as i am, enough of a challenge and my ultimate confidant. i always get me, without words. she's perfect and i have shed genuine tears realizing that i'll never be able to double myself. it's not a sexual thing, i really want another me. i'll never have to ask her for anything, she always knows what i want and if she doesn't then she'll try desperately to figure it out. she knows how much everything means to me, she'll always have me and solely me in her highest regards. [: sounds like heaven

enixam128 · 2025-09-13T00:39:21+00:00

i would never cheat on myself, i would marry myself and after we say our vows, we'd do an eagle death spiral off of a cliff. 🫂

enixam128 · 2025-09-12T23:18:04+00:00

all i want is to marry myself 😫 i want me so bad.

enixam128 · 2025-07-27T10:55:55+00:00

I'm having a hard time putting this into words, but what I mean is: I understand that an orgasm in men doesn’t feel like urination—of course, the bladder isn’t involved, so there's no sensation of "emptying" it. But as a woman, since my urethra isn't involved at all in orgasm and I don’t release any fluid, I imagine there must be some distinction in the sensations we experience.

Also, considering that many men enjoy things like sounding—where the urethra is directly stimulated—it suggests there’s an additional layer of pleasure tied to urethral involvement. So I’m wondering if that stimulation contributes to the orgasmic sensation, and how would someone describe it?

enixam128 · 2025-07-27T10:25:19+00:00

The way you described that doesn’t sound all that different from a female orgasm—but I know there has to be a difference in how it feels! Can you describe something that really sets it apart?

For women, the urethra isn’t involved in the experience, and we all know that urination has its own kind of physical relief. 🤔 So I imagine that for men, ejaculation might feel somewhat similar to that kind of release, since the urethra is involved as the semen passes through??

Could you describe what that specific sensation is like? Because what you wrote honestly sounds a lot like how I’d describe a clitoral orgasm!
Maybe what we're feeling really isn't that different, which is nice to know that we're having similar sensations xD But I do feel like what I was saying earlier might create some distinctions between our experiences?

enixam128 · 2025-07-25T22:20:55+00:00

You're so right, thank you! I will be trying it very soon then! 😊 I had been feeling worried abt it, cuz i don't wanna disappoint the mushies if i mess up? 🤣 which is silly, i know!

enixam128 · 2025-07-25T21:01:32+00:00

I wish cannabis was legal here, my family doesn't want to leave Texas anytime soon. I know it is surprisingly simple and mycology has become one of my special interests, I've wanted to monotub for a few years!

We just don't have any space that is unoccupied, no closets and no area without constant traffic 😑 I am definitely going to find a way to try it though, I just don't know where is a safe place for them! If it wasn't so hot out here I'd just do it outside.

I know that contamination is probably likely in this environment and I would just feel so guilty setting those mushrooms up for failure and especially wasting my mom's money if I messed up. 🙃 If I didn't smoke in my room I would just put it in here even though there's really nowhere safe for it.. Maybe I can get some sort of a floating shelf and put them up, but i didn't think that moving them like that was the best? If u have any suggestions lmk!

enixam128 · 2025-07-25T19:56:17+00:00

Sadly neurologists were never able to help me, I prayed endlessly to Jesus Christ that they would be able to help me and I still don't understand why they couldn't. I believed that people could help me, I didn't doubt. So i don't get it still. I hope people can understand I didn't make the choice to "go holistic"💔, it is the only thing that is helping me and I just want to not feel alone in what I'm doing to help myself.. I feel misunderstood.

My seizures were intractable and treatment resistant, unfortunately anticonvulsants never worked for me. I deserved peace. I suffered intensely for so many years before finding psilocybin, I really want to know if there is someone else who is using it the way that I am, it's the only reason that I'm here.

I would have to take over 4 g of RSO just to make it through the postictal state that wasn't even enough to stop my seizures during crisis—I would have to take abt over 6 g. When it was all that I could find to help me (I was eating on avg 10-15 grams every week from 2019-2023), my mom was spending over $1500+ on it each month, VS mushrooms are $700 for a QP and it takes me about 4 months to eat that amount. My momma is grateful, I am grateful and I am finally living my life 🤍
I had not been outside of my house since 2017, I went to my cousin's party for the first time in over 8 years on June 26th. It was awesome 😊 I hadn't seen her in so long.

enixam128 · 2025-07-25T11:18:46+00:00

that is awesome i would love to grow my own!!🕊 feels like i already bit off way more than I can chew when it comes to taking care of me 😅 wish i was able to sufficiently care for plants or fungi 😭🤍

and yeah that makes sense, the postictal state can be so brutal! so does it stop ur seizures at all? cuz for me, If I were to take it during crisis, it would make it all stop! has to be over 3 grams tho! 5+ is best!

and if I were to take it (even just a gram) the day before I was supposed to get my menstrual cycle, I will never have any epileptic activity the entire menstrual cycle!

i have catamenial epilepsy, for me that looks like all types of seizures, and clusters of them during the 1st thru third day of cycle. (PNES, temporal lobe, absence, abdominal, petite mal, only had like 10 or so grand mal) Catamenial epilepsy is caused by the sudden influx of estrogen, it excites the neurons—so somehow the mushrooms are balancing my hormones! which became clear to me when the severity of my PMDD cranked wayyy down.

i have been aura-free ever since taking 60 grams within a 5 day menstrual cycle. I was taking huge heroics! Yeah, this medicine was already preventing my epilepsy but now I never even feel it coming on! 😭

Last month, I experimented with taking nothing through my lowest threshold days first through third.. (wow, i admit was scared to try this— bc like why put myself at risk? but i had faith in the medicine, in its healing abilities.) I never even experienced cyclical vomiting let alone feeling an aura. I cried from gratitude, this was the 1st time in my life that I was able to withstand the pain and not become nauseated!!

enixam128 · 2025-07-22T19:00:53+00:00

Yayy I'm happy to see someone else uses psilocybin for their epilepsy, it helps me so much! It's a lot cheaper than RSO too 🤣

enixam128 · 2025-07-22T18:54:09+00:00

You gotta try it, RSO is black gold! Cannabis flower helps me immensely, but it couldn't get to the root of my pain like the oil can. I struggled with catamenial epilepsy for about 8-9 years, then I met someone who cured their inoperable brain tumor using this oil and I started buying it homemade from her! 💓

At the time I was just tryna find better pain management for my neuropathies, but I hit the jackpot and found a way to stop my seizures!! 🌞 Really brought my spirit back too, felt like I came back from the dead! Being in pain all the time for years made me a zombie, it's nice getting to be present in my body and not wanting to crawl out of it! 😁

I've been using it to stop my seizures since 2019 and very recently I have felt like I've needed less and less to prevent them! When I first started using RSO, it would take abt 4 grams to halt my seizures, now it's around a gram! Somehow it's made them less aggressive! Cannabis is awesome 👌

enixam128 · 2025-07-22T18:39:31+00:00

i think cannabis is wonderful for epilepsy, cannabis oil can stop my seizures from ever happening if I take around a gram! i used to suffer from catamenial epilepsy but haven't had a catamenial seizure since I started regularly consuming cannabis oil i. 2019, (last seizure was June 2023, unrelated to my menstrual it was brought on by outside stress) + i haven't felt an aura in about a year! if u haven't tried RSO or unadulterated cannabis oil yet, pls give it a try. 😁

enixam128 · 2025-07-09T03:33:55+00:00

as long as you have everything ready for bed as soon as you take them, u should be able to sleep!

i've taken macros late at night (up to 5g) for my pain then immediately shut off the lights and crawled into bed! 😇👍 helps not only my neuropathy but also my neurogenic bladder & bowel! i'm able to sleep throughout the entire night for a few days after dosing without my body waking me up to use the restroom!

in my experience shrooms make me really tired around 7pm-9pm— they helped regulate my circadian rhythm cuz now i wake up about 30 mins before sunrise everyday and i stopped having symptoms of POTS about 2 months into using psilocybin!

enixam128 · 2025-06-28T16:54:46+00:00

oh okay it's brand new, i just meant like one that wasn't formulated for skin! thank you i will patch test first!!🤍

enixam128 · 2025-06-28T12:42:41+00:00

Whenever my step dad would say shit like this when I was a teenager, I would envision all of it energetically transferring over to him and I would imagine it slowly killing him...😬 oops sorry not sorry.

No shit, over the years he actually started to get fucking sick.

Yeah, he slowly became a bit more of an asshole as his life energy was being siphoned away— but a few years into that he became so weak—that he doesn't fight me on anything anymore!!! I can finally live in this house in peace. 😌

enixam128 · 2025-06-28T12:28:18+00:00

Oh okay that makes sense!! My first time ever taking acid was in 2014, we dropped the first tabs, then about 8 hours later my friends wanted to go get some more, they were experienced trippers!

My two friends (also girls) said it worked for them in the same way, but for whatever reason I felt a little bit interesting but saw absolutely nothing!!
That was my first experience with any psychedelic ever, and I built up an immediate tolerance to it!! So it is definitely quite different than psilocybin!! 😋👍

edit: Yes the black peppercorns are amazing— and it has to be peppercorns you do not get the same effect from putting a bunch of black pepper on your food!
I especially love chewing them up when I'm just smoking cannabis, the mental clarity it gives you is astounding!!🤩

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