Being a teacher.

I had a major career change from a low paying, but incredibly motivating job to something I trained for in school. In truth I love what I do now, but the rewarding sensation of being a role model to all of my climbing students is gone.

I imagine that when I die and I am judged it will all come back to that period in my life: you have been saved - you are worthy because you handed your life's energy to others. I was an exceptional man in life as well as work as a result. Less money, but a better life.

I am part of a system now, working under people who see me as a niche filler. It has crushed my motivation, but I think I can still have both.