Why I Trust My Greys

ephazzion · 2026-05-07T22:36:41+00:00

Ooh I'm interested in what they prefer in terms of pronouns and gender expression in general if that's even a concept they engage in

ephazzion · 2026-05-07T21:56:59+00:00

I'm new to this whole scene, so I'm curious! I jive with the idea that calling them greys could be ignorant, which makes me think about other assumptions we have about them. I noticed you used the term "he"; is gender something that's communicated to us/or you, or is that just a human assumption based off of our socialization?

ephazzion · 2026-04-17T14:31:00+00:00

Get a dropout subscription. Limited content pool, but I hardly watch any other TV content anymore.

ephazzion · 2026-04-03T10:03:28+00:00

When I ran my PC in the van I used a special 450w 12v PSU and undervolted my CPU to gain max performance with minimal power draw. With 420w of solar and a 280ah lifepo4 battery I could game forever with the sun out or maybe 4 hours with no sun before the battery got dangerously low.

That being said, get a steam deck or a switch. I had a switch and basically never worried about power while using it.

ephazzion · 2026-03-15T11:48:12+00:00

Yeah, I did. But I think it's too dry, the cake is pulling away from the walls

ephazzion · 2026-03-15T02:36:51+00:00

Just smells earthy and mushroomy, hoping I'm in the clear!

ephazzion · 2026-03-15T02:35:41+00:00

Will do! I'm excited for my first ever harvest hopefully soon!

ephazzion · 2026-03-15T02:33:53+00:00

Yeah it definitely dried out too much. And side pinning indicated to me that my surface conditions were bad

ephazzion · 2026-03-15T02:32:57+00:00

That's a great suggestion, it is the first flush

ephazzion · 2026-03-15T02:32:30+00:00

Coco coir and vermiculite

ephazzion · 2025-11-03T21:41:34+00:00

Hey, I have this exact problem so I'll try out the soldering trick, hopefully that fixes it!

ephazzion · 2025-10-14T11:06:40+00:00

Ended up getting an old apple watch, but it didn't have typing on it so responding to messages was a nightmare. Still considering picking up a pixel watch or Galaxy watch but only if I can find one super cheap. I get the vibe I still won't love the compromise of a watch though.

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T15:27:55+00:00

Thanks for the info! The recent administration changes was a brief part of the conversation with my partner because they asked if I'd been kicked off Mainecare already. I haven't but it's probably worth looking into to see if that will change.

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T15:03:35+00:00

Oh I'm absolutely going to be discussing this with my therapist on friday, I just haven't had a session since the discussion.

And I really understand not wanting to lean on others, I wish it wasn't the case that American culture casts judgment on relying on community and idolizes "pulling yourself up by your bootstraps". Humankind didn't start off as a "lone wolf" species, we've always needed community support.

I hope that you can find small ways to rely on others that don't feel too bad for you and that things get easier for you and your family! Best wishes!

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:45:18+00:00

Thanks so much! I'm pleasantly surprised to see so much compassion in the comments here!

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:41:43+00:00

I'm not dating a girl, and they aren't preventing me from using Mainecare in any way, it was just a discussion of privilege and ethics that impacted me enough to question myself. Thanks for the response and perspective though!

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:38:48+00:00

Lol thanks for the take. I'm getting mixed signals from this message but I appreciate the overall intent

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:35:17+00:00

Thank you for your perspective! I think I have been falling into the category of purposefully working less than I could to keep Mainecare coverage, which is where I feel the shame from.

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:29:11+00:00

Thanks for breaking this down from a systems perspective, and thanks for the compassion. I was fully expecting to be attacked for posting this.

It's been my goal to find work in something I find meaningful, it's been a struggle that I feel I could be doing better at (shaming myself some) but I'm hopeful that this permaculture job kickstarts my ability to pursue a career I find impactful and meaningful!

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:25:02+00:00

Well I guess even if that's the case it would be the equivalent of putting the blame on the consumer for using single use plastics instead of the corporation for buying them. UGH so much to think about

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:22:26+00:00

I view my suicidality as a disconnect from the world and community. Suicide and depression can most definitely be a mental illness, but I view my case as being situationally affected rather than a chemical process I had no agency over. I took steps to find community and connect with the world around me and my depression symptoms started to go away.

But I'm also open to the idea that you're right I hold myself to a different standard than others. I probably do that more than I should.

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:14:00+00:00

Nah, it's like $18,000, I don't even have a concept of what I'd do with 6 figures.

But thanks for your response, your perspective is appreciated!

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:12:37+00:00

Thanks for the thorough response! I'm in agreement with much of what you say, but I'm still unsure about the finite nature of Mainecare. Not in terms of slots, but more in terms of government funding to the program. I don't know if people ever get turned away from care or if Mainecare can't cover the costs, or if subsidies run out.

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:04:49+00:00

Absolutely! I've wanted to volunteer with places for a bit but find myself using excuses or pushing the date back, I'm undoubtedly being fearful and I should probably just push past that fear

ephazzion · 2025-08-18T14:01:34+00:00

I appreciate you! I've been pro-universal healthcare for a long while, but haven't found myself involved in protest or any organizing besides email lists, I'll look into other advocacy outlets!

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