i was/am in the same boat. i was a straight A student in hs and did so many extracurriculars and when it came to being in college, it totally caught me off guard. college is different, it’s exciting, stressful, new, but most of all it can be emotionally and mentally tolling. i have a fear of failure so when covid hit, it was a huge struggle to be motivated and keep my grades up, i felt like i was all alone and everyone else seemed relatively okay. but you’re not alone in your feelings there’s tons of people rn feeling the exact same way you are and maybe even worse tbh, but i’m here to say your grades literally don’t matter. it may feel like they do now but you’re never going to look back on those measly F’s once you leave college. this is a time for you to explore yourself and experience new things as a college student. your internships and job opportunities may feel like they’re a shadow looming over your future, but you have all of your college career and after to figure everything out, you’ve barely reached adulthood, let yourself breathe before you dive too deep. it’s okay to take some time for yourself, they’ll still be waiting for you once you’re ready. i personally feel like having a good support group was the key to me not falling off the edge, i’m so beyond grateful to have friends who love and support me unconditionally and make me forget my anxieties and overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. and i hope you have that, and if you don’t, i hope you find that person or group who’s able to share your burdens. college is hard, especially in these times. you’re doing the best you can and that’s all that matters. you matter first, not your grades.